living the world of hers; contradictions

I wish...

Feeling: mixed
Playing: The Fish
Location: TSP

*warning. depressing entry.*


Once again, I find myself signing in and out of blogspot, not knowing if I should blog or not.
I sometimes wonder what is wrong with me.

I wish this bad time will pass faster.

I wish life will be smoother.

I wish there were less complications.

I wish for a life of peace.

I wish my mind will stop thinking.




I told Kris last night, I am tired.
Kris told me, Don't think so much.
I smiled.

I am really tired. Why won't time stop for me? Why can't I just rest? Why is everything going by so quickly?

*pauses*

I wonder... What is my purpose in living now?

*wonders*

When I was in church yesterday, I asked God, Why am I living?
I think God told me something but I don't know if it is His answer to me... I heard him say, Trust in Me.

Trust in Him.

Faith is about believing what you cannot see, cannot touch, cannot smell. Faith is about believing.


Sigh...


I feel silly the last few days. I feel so out of place. I feel weird. I feel like my mind is somewhere else. I can't seem to think in my own shoes. Weird.

Brain.... Please come back to me. Thank you very much.
Mind.... I miss you. Please come back.
Sharon dearest.... Where are you?

BAH!

I am insane.

ciao.

posted by JL @ 10:56 AM