living the world of hers; contradictions

i am still here

Feeling: tired, constipated
Playing: power 98
Location: tsp

hi peeps.

i am alive.
but i am too tired to think about anything to blog or upload my pictures for you to see.

i haven't stopped working overtime since 15 August (refering to my calendar). not that i am complaining about working overtime, i am just saying that i think i grew 10 years older just by working so much.

last thursday and friday, i had the exhibition. i stayed till past midnight for preparation and the actual day itself. then saturday, i had a whole day of meeting with my customers.

sigh. if only i am not so green in this industry, i will know how to handle things better.

so much things to do until i am scared of going home. too many nightmares to count. no matter how much i sleep, i am still tired.

i feel horrible and terrible (and if he can understand how i truly am feeling and response to the way i want him to, then again, i will be expecting too much out of him. *confused*).

once again, don't ask me about "work". i am constantly thinking about it as tho it's injected into my blood. what's worth living for right now is becos of him, yet i couldn't express myself better last night when we quarrelled.

maybe it's true, i do not know what i want or what i am thinking. i ought to be shot dead sometimes for talking.

[m][e][s][s][a][g][e]:

YY, I miss you. why aren't you here with me now? *sobs*

posted by JL @ 10:19 AM