living the world of hers; contradictions

all saints day

Feeling: happy & excited
Playing: 98.7FM, Tangled up in me by Skye Sweetnam
Location: Home

it's only 6.30pm and i am already home. i haven't attend mass and i have only done 2 chapters at Angel's house. what went wrong?

i reached Angel's place at 1pm. started studying. at 2pm, jeremy and ks came. kinda disrupted our studying for a while. :/ then they started playing game. gosh.. i was left alone to study. feeling tired and hungry, i sms mom and asked her what time is mass at our church. that's when she called me and saved me~! At 3.30pm, i left.

Mom told me she wants to go to grand's place to put some stuff down. so i followed. told her i was hungry then we went in search for food. laughs. actually, i was looking for a drive thru cos it was raining and i was lazy to go in and out of the car. Found one near sembawang. i had Mac's big mac meal. wah. sinful.

at my grands' place.
they were shocked to see me. laughs. let's see.. i haven't seen them since i-dunno-when. i have a picture of them, together with my some of cousins.


taken in may 2004. my grandfather's 79th birthday. notice my hair was still long. and i was looking pretty tan. pretty or not? keke..

anyway, i told mom that i want to get a digital camera. and i am not going to get N6260 cos Shixian commented that i will be wasting my money cos it's similar to my N6220. so i will hang on to my N6220 while i save up to get my digital camera. i am presently using my brother's camera. it's his. not mine. hee.. i want to own one. *greedy*

i also told mom about my future plans after my graduation from poly. told her i would try for SMU but if i can't get in i will go for UWA (Uni of Western Aust) or maybe Curtin? she kinda agreed. she doesn't expect me to get into a Uni anywayssss. all she said was, work harder. laughs. when i told her about my results, she was kinda speechless. maybe she was thinking that i would have more Cs and Ds. *gryns*

i shared plenty of stuff with mom today. told myself to be a good girl and listen to her. don't make her angry and i will be safe from nags. when i am safe from nags it means i will be happier. right now, she just wants me to listen.. many things that she says may not make sense or somehow not be related to me but i guess she's just finding excuses to talk and spend time with me. haha.. just that she don't know what to say. so she starts nagging. am i wrong?

oh yar, sms Jacqueline, my primary school best friend. i will be meeting her for lunch at NTU. laughs. one stone kill two birds. after lunching with her, i will be meeting Qi Qi for study session. wooHoo.. tell you sth k. the last time i met Jac was primary 4. keke.. she left my pri sch cos she moved to pasir ris. now she's in amk. she's staying all over the place. i remember her in my pri sch (located in Boon Lay) for only 1-2years. so i am really excited.

ha.. so that's why i am home early. cos mom came home after grands. And i will be going to mass in my original church, St. Francis of Assisi.

I called Keith just now. it was 6pm and he was still in the office. argh.. heart pain. he's sick and he's working so hard. who says being a manpower officer is easy? he always have so much paper work to do. (something that i won't be doing in my future job, but he likes it. ha~!) Luckily, his dad came to pick him up. *thank you Uncle* guess he will be dead when he reaches home. keke..

tonight. tonight. tonight. i will be mugging. i am already having the i-have-finished-my-exams mood. gooseness. 2 more papers. i need to get 70% for tmr papers to get a C. *pray pray* let's hope i won't have itchy fingers and start blogging. hee..

oh yar, mom told me that next christmas, we will be going to the states to celebrate cos it's her God-parents' 50th wedding anniversary. time to save money.

savings list
1. digital camera
2. airfare to States
3. daily savings

:/ so many things to save for. but i thank God for giving me the chance to be a pampered little girl once. hee.. missed those times when daddy would bring me to toy-r-us. he would give me 30 minutes to choose a toy and then when time is up.. i get to buy it. but only one item. can you imagine? i got a Barbie doll house equiped with furnitures. i had so much toys.. haha.. always go Macdonalds.. restaurants.. go overseas.. *grateful*

present toy list
-electronic keyboard
-computer (voted the most freq used)
-piano
-guitar
-keith *giggles*
-pepper *laughs*

i am getting so out of point. laughs. better get going. want to ask mama to go Jurong point. cos i want to get a new song book. saw it at life bookshop. got 400 odd music scores. and new songs in it. cheap cheap.. 69.90 dollars only. =Þ will she subsidise for me? or get it for my x'mas present? go try my luck.

take care darlings. love you all. muacks muacks.


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Keith: dear.. i love you. please take care of yourself. and keeping yourself so updated by reading my blog. haha. tot you were supposed to be rushing through your work. :/ dowan to kiss you already cos you are sick. *bleahs* oh yar, your 2 bowls of jelly are still in the fridge. when are you going to come for it?

Thomas: how's camp?

Eugene: as seen from above, moms are all the same. they are scared of loneliness. if she wants to nag at you, let her rattle on. if she says you are too arrogant, maybe it's cos she's jealous? she's a woman afterall. treat her like a lady. speak to her just like the way you talk to me. and i am sure she will not call you an arrogant fellow. be comfortable with who you are. change when you think it's wrong.

Sheryl: jiayou! jiayou! laughs. any guy who makes you so drained out, don't deserve you. there's someone out there who is waiting for you. just wait for the time to be right, in the meantime, let time heal those painful wounds. *hugs* I am here for you always. *smiles* honestly, i find it very comfortable and nice talking to you. let's be hao peng you and irritate jj. may our forces combine. (sounds like captain planet. haha!)

posted by JL @ 6:27 PM