living the world of hers; contradictions: cheater bugs need bug-ticide

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

cheater bugs need bug-ticide

Feeling: slightly more relaxed, happier than ytd, constraints inside of me
Playing: 98.7FM, Thunderbirds By Busted
Location: TSP

for starters, i had a pretty goodnight's sleep for the last 3 nights.. I was too tired and just fall asleep almost immediately.. followed by heavy breathing which weren't snores fyi. *sticks tongue out and shakes about* Laughs... that was what my darling told me. He had a 3 days 2 nights camp over at my place. *LAUGHS* Gosh.. didn't realise that i have been actually sleeping quiet peacefully until i was talking to Keith over the phone last night. I got to thank him for the recharge. THANK YOU DEAR!

I am still feeling a little down but at least i am feeling better than the past few weeks. I am still trying to figure out what is wrong with me.. BUT BUT BUT! i managed to sort some things out..
(1) I am trying too hard to be someone else, I am who I am.. just got to accept me and love myself more.
(2) I shouldn't be too affected by what others think and say about me, if not I will never be able to "find" myself. Always changing to suit the environment and the people i am around with, it is going to be tough if i don't stick to what i believe, which makes me sound like a hypocrite.
(3) I feel really dumb. Seriously stupid. can't seem to find my forte. and it's getting depressing when i know that i am no good at anything. (Sharon, don't start the depressing statements again.. come on.. fight!)
(4) My confidence level is low. My self-esteem is low.

Anyway, i went for my basic theory test (BTT) today and got cheated. the cheater buggers! *sprays bug-ticide* smack them arh! i thought i would be able to use the touch screen system for my BTT, but they told us that the system isn't ready yet! CAN'T believe it man! They made me wait for 2 months before they allow me to take my test and now they tell me i got to wait for another 2 weeks for my results?! BBDC is wasting my time! I want to learn how to drive! Without a pass in BTT, i can't do anything!! *pulls hair*

Let me explain. I registered with BBDC in mid August. I had to take 2 basic theory(BT) lessons before i can take my BTT. I went along.. by the time i finished the lessons and did the evaluation that is required, it was end september. (I was having my mid term test in August, that's why i got delayed.) So i booked for my BTT and the nearest date was 16th November 2004. (Fine.. they say they will be changing the system to computer instead of paper, that's why they need to delay the test dates.) Then 16th Nov came, and they told us that the system isn't ready. THIS IS SO SAD.. Cheater bugs right? (maybe i am just over reacting :/)

I guess i can't do anything but wait. right? *smiles*

Oh yar, what happened at BBDC today was like this..
I reached there ard 9.50am. I went to the 2nd level. sat on the chair and waited. While waiting i took out CLEO to read. *giggles* everyone else was either revising or not doing anything but i was reading CLEO.. Anyway, at 10.20am, we were called into this computer room, filled with LG LCD screens.. I got pretty excited thinking i can actually apply for my PDL after this but they told us the sad news. *sobs* bah! They gave out the answer sheets and booklet and we started at 10.30am. After yesterday's speed test, i managed to finish the required 50 MCQ in 20min. Bah! I was the first to leave the room. i noticed a few people staring at me when i left. haha! even the instructor was shocked when i handed in the answers.. He wanted to tell me something, stammered for a while and told me, "We'll mail you the results." I nodded and left.
Oh man, never felt so confident about a paper before... I got to make it this time round. *prays*

Then.. I took a bus to TSP. just when i was about to settle down, a guy came looking for me. The laptop guy! I got no idea what is his name.. (i know i am lousy.. i kinda panic when i was over at his dept that i forgot to ask for his contact, besides it was already lunch time when he finished showing me the samples.) He showed me a few models.. price ranging from $2ooo - $2800. Reasonable for a Portege A200 (newest model) or Tecra M2. The specs are acceptable and the weight is good for me. the A200 is 2kg while M2 is 2.2kg. the A200 is smaller than M2 and it's white in colour. TOTALLY BEAUTIFUL! Just then, mom called.. I asked her if i can increase the amount that she is paying, she said ok.. That means, i might have a chance to get the Portege (which cost more than Tecra). Right now.. i have to convince my auntie to let me buy it. *smiles* Oh yar, the lappie guy told me if i can find a NUS student, i can get it at a lower price and 3 softwares for free (Office, Anti-virus and Marcomedia). yea yea.. I got a few friends in NUS. *jumps* but the sad news, another 2 more weeks before the stock comes in. *impatient*

The specs for A200 from what i can remember:
Intel® Centrino™ (1.6GHz), 512MB ram, Hard Disk 60GB, CD-RW/DVD-ROM Drive, Display Internal 12.1" TFT active matrix, 3 yrs warranty..

*smiles to myself*

Now, lunch. I broke the strip of my slippers by knocking into the table leg. the one in the front middle area. *laughs* had to drag my right slippers back. Well, it's well worn for 3 years now. From Charles and Keith. this means.. i can get new slippers already!!!!!!! But this is my favourit pair. gonna miss it tho.

okies.. i better go back to work. got alot to say and to tell you peeps but just not enough time and memory to put in down. laughs.. and i am sorry if my bloggy gets too boring.