living the world of hers; contradictions

try me

Feeling: lost
Playing: power 98
Location: tsp

something caught me this morning. i was taken aback. i feel lost again.

why is it so easy to lose something? things like confidence, trust, happiness.
It took me years to build up those and prepare me for my future back then but now i feel like it's all gone, all the efforts wasted.

never in my life have someone said i was childish (of cos, jokingly yes and maybe those who don't know me thinks i am). all of a sudden it seems as tho it's a crime to have PMDD. i know i am the worst among most of my friends and i get extremes but i really can't control it. *sobs*

some people just won't understand, especially women, they think that PMDD is just PMS but they won't know until they experience what PMDD women go through.

if you think it's easy to knock yourself out of being negative, try being me. really, pray so hard and wish with all your might to be me for one month.

i am not proud and being "hao lian" to say that i been through alot but what i went through left me scars which gives me nightmares and fears and insecurities. it's not for you to judge my character.

it's hard being a human being already, why make it harder for me to be me?

i hate myself during this time of the month.

posted by JL @ 11:13 AM