i want to blog but...
Feeling: cramping, headache-y, happy
Playing: nothing
Location: home
i want to blog but not on my lappy cos my photos are all in my desktop. argh.. but my desktop won't connect me to the Internet. i don't like this feeling.. i am going to wait for Jacob to come rescue me. Jacob quick!!!
super duper busy n it shucks
Feeling: busy and panicky
Playing: 98.7FM, talking DJ
Location: Home
help. i am freaking out. super duper freaked out. i want to do my project 24/7 but my body won't allow. i am sick again. i feel so damn tired. my body feels heavy. help.
pending projects:
1. FYP report
2. IADT
3. Marketing Presentation & Report
help... i am doom.
Relationships and Self Esteem (Part 1)
What attracts a human being to another, and what makes a relationship work?
I realised that the key was a healthy sense of self worth. Animals are driven by instinct, primal desire and the need for survival. A beast is seldom defeated by how "ugly" it thinks it looks? if at all. It simply accentuates its strengths. But when it comes to humans, it gets trickier. We ignore our strengths and dwell on our weaknesses.
If you have low self esteem, you tend to believe that most people are more attractive than you, and that there's nothing you can do to improve your appearance. As a result, you don't bother about grooming, your wardrobe is drab and ten years old, you walk around with a perpetual scowl, and you probably always say negative things about yourself to other people. This has a self-fulfilling effect. You essentially become the unpleasant and unsightly person you perceive yourself to be.
On the other hand, a little attention to your hair, your clothes, your demeanour and how you carry yourself could dramatically lift your self-image and how others perceive you. This may come across as shallow, but we can't deny that we live in a very visual world. An audio/visual world, I might add. What we see and what we tell ourselves and others has a very profound impact on our reality. A little vanity never hurt anyone; and who says an appealing physical presence is not healthy? A trim body is also probably a healthy one. Good grooming also means good hygiene. A cheerful manner opens up opportunities for meaningful friendships. And good posture could save you a lot of back problems later in life.
If you think you're unpleasant-looking, do something about it! There are perfectly healthy ways to improve your looks. And while enhancing your body, don't forget your mind and soul. Absorb knowledge! Take up a course, pick up a sport, read, travel, cook! Volunteer your services to charity. Meaningful activities also often take place in environments where meaningful relationships can blossom.
We sometimes assume that most people are superficial and materialistic - that they tend to value looks, physique, charisma, intelligence, wealth and social status more than love, talent, honesty, sincerity, compassion and simplicity. Because of this, we try to present a version of ourselves that we feel fits into the mould of the perfect partner. In other words, we suppress our true selves in order to impress. The fact is, people are most attracted to people who are comfortable with who they are. So be yourself on dates. You'll be surprised at how many people will be delighted at how refreshingly real and candid you are.
heck
Feeling: pissed
Playing: Karma... bloggy's song
Location: Home
argh. one of my classmates who almost NEVER attends class just msg me.. it's 1.58am! "Hey... tmr got MMSP lab?" *blows up* fine. i admit, i am pms-ing, i get pissed off easily these few days. but wth! it's week 11. and she still din notice that I AM NOT IN MMSP CLASSES?! it's not that i dislike her but i really don't understand how come she passed her stage 3B while i got to retain for one more semester when i go for more classes and do my project!!!! ARGH! freak!
another person had to ask if i applied for Uni yet.. *sigh* I FAILED A MOD AND I HAVE TO REPEAT ONE SEMESTER.. DELAYED. stop asking please... it's saddening.---
at mao's place.. behold what lies within...
but first... pai nian to aunty first..
while i was busy doing tnp, they were busy playing burnt out on PS2. wahahhaa... as usual.. but they never fail to give me countless laughter after that.
"mao mao!" lalalalalala~ by demand, he had to stop playing and come help me. wahahah..
I reached Mao's place at 3pm. We are done by 5pm. wahahhaa.. to be continued larh...
at 7pm. I was at Bishan having my yummilicious Tepanyaki... then went to Mos.
Large Ice Milk Tea and 5 pieces of Chicken Nuggets. Bishan Mos was playing techno tracks.. got really irritated. made me chew so fast... hate techno music. yeeeeee....
wahahah.. Muji, $14. 77th Street, $28.90. Shibuya, $95.50. total=$138.40!!!!!!!!! Over spent! oh well, daddy sponsored for my dress (shibuya; a black tube top dress matched with a shiny-crystal-metal belt).. so my account isn't in that bad of a situation yet. but i couldn't resist the billabong shirt that i tried at 77th street. wahahha.. it's all mummy's fault. She made us wait for 1.5 hours. Cos my granny's tricycle is sold on yahoo auctions! so had to deliver to the guy... argh.. then she had dinner. so wait loh..
my second round of Ice milk tea... nowhere to go. all shops closed. BooHoOOo....
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I have driving tmr morning. bah. so i am going to sleep with the bad air now. i can smell the haze all the time and i hate it! eeeeek!
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oh yar, sun tanning anyone?
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Happy last day of CNY!
Perfectionism
Like many other societies, ours is one driven by the pursuit of the highest standards. We were taught to always be the best, the one who gets the medal, the one with the best grades, the one who gets the most value for money at the buffet table.
This struggle towards perfection is not entirely unjustified; after all, we all should strive to become the best that we can be. Some of us actually thrive on constantly trying to be perfect. However, there is a difference between trying to be your best and attempting to live up to expectations which are excessively high or overly rigid.
Perfectionistic behaviour isn't helpful when it makes you aim for standards you can't possibly meet, and causes you to become depressed and anxious when you don't meet them. Perfectionistic inclinations are only positive when you're able to re-adjust your standards when you realise that they are impossible to reach.
If excessively high goals are making you inconsolably frustrated and miserable, then maybe it's time you rethink your concept of perfection. We all need to know when it's time to go for it and when to kick back a little and stop beating ourselves up over what we failed to achieve.
How do you know if your perfectionist tendencies are beginning to cause you unnecessary strife and misery?
Martin M. Antony, co-author of the book "When Perfect Isn't Good Enough", suggests asking the people around you. He goes on to say that perfectionism can mean a lot of different things. It can be a detail-oriented, compulsive way of being, where everything has to be in order and no one is allowed to be more than a couple of minutes late for an appointment.
People may also set unattainable standards for themselves - like trying to be the perfect parent, a superstar at work, a fantastic friend or the ideal partner, or attempting to attain the perfect physique.
You know it's starting to become a problem when you realise that there are certain aspects of your life from which you demand absolute perfection - anything less makes you unhappy and unfulfilled. It could be a relationship perhaps, or how your colleagues perceive you. And that feeling of dissatisfaction is very intense and is beginning to adversely impact other aspects of your life.
Let go of that anxiety and relax a little. Very often, these benchmarks hardly do any damage if they aren't reached. Don't let the pursuit of perfection affect your happiness and ability to maintain fulfilling relationships with the people around you.
tai on reservice
Feeling: good
Playing: 98.7FM, Better Man by Robbie Williams
Location: Home
wahahaha... I am still at home. COS Mr Tai is not in school. so I have no tutorial and no lab. I actually skipped tut on purpose and got a call from mao at 9.45am.. he asked me not to go to school cos no class. wahahahaha....
decided to sleep in till later.. woke up at 11am by 3 sms. *yawns* 1st msg from jj, my wake up "call". 2nd from Mr Tan, there's a classrep meeting tmr at 12pm which i won't be able to make it. 3rd from Nic. Argh! He missed his LAB TEST!!!! *faints* I hope everything goes well for him.
do you girls sometimes feel extremely tired and hungry when your period reaches? That's how i am feeling since yesterday. erm.. yesterday alone i had 4 meals? for breakfast; duck noodles, for lunch; guava and green apple, for tea break; shrooms burger, for dinner; pork porridge.. erm.. supper; po pia.. argh.. so much food. it's too much...
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i got some photos of pepper.. lalalalala...
Pepper reading the striats times or not.. when i got home ytd, i found bits and pieces of papers all over the floor.. All his doing...
gave Pepper a stick to bite. and he does it on top of his favourite Eeyore which once belonged to me until he pulled it off my bed. humph!
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BBNT lab test results~ wahahahha.. I PASSED!
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i told daddy i need a dress. lalala~ he said ok. so i will be going out to get it soon after he bathes Pepper. then i will head to mao's place. wOOoOo... it's going to be late. wahahaa.. nvm, they can play maple and level up first.
tired
Feeling: tired
Playing: 98.7FM, Call on me by Eric Prydz
Location: Home
*bOo* my internet connection was down the whole afternoon. tried to fixed it but got really tired switching my comp on and off... arh.. *bangs head against my pillow* wahahahha.. i lied on my bed and before i knew it, i fell into coma for 2 hours!
woke up at 7pm. to have dinner and rush to church. throughout the whole praise and worship session, i was just feeling so lazy and i wasn't concentrating on playing.. i was thinking of my whole day. LOL.. the U-turns i made, 5 different types of U-turn. Wide U-turn, Narrow U-turn, Roundabout U-turn, Single white line U-turn and traffice light U-turn. made my legs so tired too.. cos it's all turning with gear 1, means half clutch. *grumbles* next time buy auto car! *not*
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oh yar, daddy told me on Friday before i left for js chalet, he asked me to go learn class 2b. then he will buy me a bike! YiiPpie! That means my dream of riding can come true already!! shalalalalla~~~ it's always good to learn more right? right? right?
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in school today. argh. i feel so silly telling you guys this. After my lesson at bbdc, i rushed to take the fedal service to Bt Gombak MRT. argh.. panicked cos i tot i had only 10 min to reach Dover. No way i can make it on time for class... Plus my class was at T8. means it's a 5-10min walk from Dover. argggghhhhh.... when i reached school, i climbed up the stairs all the way from level one to three. panting.. T834. peeked through the windows.. eh! NOT MY CLASS! checked my timetable again. Bloody tOOt. my class starts at 11am! *box myself*
how dumb can i get?
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argh.. i am brain dead again. still got lots of things on my mind.
projects pending:
1. FYP report
2. IADT
3. TNP (marketing)
Lab tests awaiting:
1. Broadband Comm
2. Broadband Network Tech
4 weeks more to dateline for the above items. I am screwed.
I want to have fun and i want to study. *cries*
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tmr i will be going to Mao's place to do proj, Thurs with QQ to do my IADT and Friday.. dunno yet. sobs.. i got so many ppl i want to spend time with but i can't. Esp small Michelle.. i hope she will remember me when i see her the next time..
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humph! quarrelled with jj cos of a stupid tricycle. pissed off. I am not someone who will let you push around. If you try to be a MCP in front of me, then forget it. GUYS! anyone of you tries to be a MCP, you are blacklisted. what's with your ego?! argh. disgusted.
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argh.. too many things to blog. too little ram. cannot support. going to crash. goodnight.
bloggy mood
Feeling: bloggy mood..
Playing: 98.7FM, Breath in by Lucie Silvas
Location: Home
wOOoHhOoOooo... I am just in a high mood cos i am alone at home with ONLY Pepper. Happy shalalala~ Tho i am feeling extremely sleepy but i want to blog blog blog. lol.
Over the weekends, i got myself a video ezy membership card which means i will be borrowing more vcds/dvds to watch. keke.. i guess all of you should have guessed how much of a movie addict i am. I love going to the movies but when i can't watch them or when i am broke, hehehehe... renting 5 movies at $16 isn't a bad idea too.. All thanks to LV who intro me to this cheaper form of entertainment. Thanks darling~~~~
hmm.. what else did i do? let me recall... things that i have yet to update you people..
well, when i got back from the 3 days 2 nights of chalet, everything else in the house seemed fine and normal. my relationship with daddy improved or should i say with almost everyone except mom. erm... shall not elaborate.
jj and i are working things out. So guys, don't put so much hopes on me being single again. *hek hek* gosh.. i should be punished for being so proud. *reminds myself to be humble* well, i can't help it when i am being praised and certain people are making me fly so high that i feel like i am on cloud nine~ lalalalalalala~~~
talking about being punished, i din go for my weekly sunday mass cos i was being lazy and i wanted to have more fun with my girlfriends.. *prays to God and asks for Forgiveness.. I am sorry.* Acutally, i din plan my time properly. *smacks my own pi gu*
*Internet down* blog later...
Creative Visualisation
Creative Visualisation is a tried and true technique that helps you create the things you want in life. Creative Visualisation is the art of sending an image to your subconscious mind. Your subconscious mind then creates your reality based on the messages that you send to it.
The key to understanding how creative visualisation works is to first understand that your subconscious mind does not know what is real and what is fiction. It simply creates your reality based on the image that you visualise.
So if you visualise yourself struggling, poor, unhappy, alone or depressed, then this is the reality that your subconscious mind creates. There have been many books written on creative visualisation all of which tell you that if you visualise you will create the things you want. Some people view this with suspicion. Some give it a try, but are disappointed that it doesn't yield results immediately.
Well, like most other life-affirming practices, like adopting an attitude of gratitude or journaling, visualisation requires commitment, time, and faith to produce any discernible benefits. In order to get the most out of visualisation, all your other messages to your subconscious mind have to be in agreement with what you visualise. In other words, there is no room for skepticism. Once you've decided to visualise creatively to improve your life, be sure to give it your full dedication.
Think of it this way. You're in a boat and there are a number of people rowing this boat for you. You tell one of them to row in a certain way so that you go in a certain direction. But if all the other people rowing for you are going in the opposite direction - that one person rowing will have little or no impact. The boat will never go the way you want.
When you work with Creative Visualisation, tap into all your powers to send a tidal wave of positive energy to your subconscious mind. Begin to see yourself living the life you want - happy, healthy, positive, loving, energized, productive, and successful.
Happy visualising!
fullfilling weekend
Feeling: satisfied
Playing: 98.7FM, I need a girl (part two) by P. Diddy & Ginuwine
Location: Home
wOooOhOoOO.. finally back home!
Friday. morning at 8am. i went for my driving. argh. it was crap i tell you. cos my judgement of speed and speed adjustment just shucks~! maybe it was too early in the morning that's why. (who am i bluffing?)
anyway, i got home and asked Daddy if i should go for js' chalet. and he said ok~! *opens eyes wide* yay! so i packed my stuff and left. only to be found today. wahahaa... in the meantime, i got lots of things to do. argh.. but i love the fun i had. esp today.. i met up with LV, jO and YY!! wahahahhaa... i got plenty of photos to show.
i am sorry if it takes long to upload my page. but there are just too much photos to show.. today alone, the 4 of us took close to a hundred photos.. with just my camera alone. (thanks jj for the loan)
anyway, i want to wish Jackson Yeo a HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!!
js killing crabs.. wah lao.. disgusting! and poor crabs...
see see!!! evil js..
zhiyong~ talking over the phone with *ahem* using jj's phone..
posing behind zhongxian.. lalalalalala~
square.. forgot whose feet. but mine looks the fattest!
*ahem*
now.. geri with js marinating the chicken.. lalalalalala~
the 6 -1 best friends.. jj, zx, js, zy and jO.. jianxiong was at chinggay~! he was on tv! weeEe...
birthday boy with his secondary school friends.. so big group.. *touched*
*touched*
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featuring LAVANYA! our precious friend.. *hugs* Certified safe driver. *not*
jO in the front.
yy on the left side.
me on the right. *yucks... dun like this photo*
parking... turn 180 deg back to see... LOL..
final product! *product?!!*
lookie here.. we are at ECP.
shadows..
trying to take the four of us tgt...
LV's idea.
pose~
so many camperss~
eh.. candid shot?
ramdom photos taken at ecp...
beach on my left
beach on my right
doggie swimming
LV making carpark payment. *giggles* too far away from the machine... (sorry LV, for causing ur arm to hurt. sorry.)
lalalalala~ my dream home.. actually, it's Tanjong Rhu.
kena cheated. first they say ok to gelare. then i ordered... then they said nydc. too bad.. they had to wait for me to finish my yummilcious chocolate overload in a waffle basket. bahahhahaha...
see wat jO did with her tongue!!!
it's NYDC!
crazy girl.
wOoo.. yummy.. forgot the names except yy's is e=mc^2 and mine... pepsi~ LOL...
LV hates the strawberry thing on her cake...
walking towards... millennium walk buy chocolate.
that's the end of our day. then LV sent us back.. i had great fun today~ esp the car jourmey here and there.. getting lost, making rounds near mountbatten road.. i love you girlssss~!
*pronouced brain dead..*
got to do my csw work. bah.. why did i volunteered to compile all of their work tgt?! argh.. why am i the classrep!?
