tired, but not of work.
Feeling: as what the picture describes
Playing: OTT's I miss you all over
Location: Home
I found myself lost after knocking off. I wanted so much to tell Anna to leave without me but part of me told me that I should stop working and leave.
I tried calling one of my friends for dinner but he didn't answer my phone. I wanted to call more but I just felt like I had no one else to turn to cos I didn't want to spend time with people whom I had to talk and talk and talk, you get the idea... I wanted to be around someone who would understand me, even if I didn't say a word but my dearest friend was not there. *mumbles* idiot.
I am not blaming my airforce-signed-on boyfriend for not being able to spend time with me but i just felt so lost and sad when the
gahmen had to put him on afternoon shift which means he still isn't home till now.
I even contemplated waiting for Kris under his block but gave up the idea.
I wanted to take the bus ride around Jurong West and then alight after it made its round from Jurong West Extension but gave up the idea.
I wanted to alight at the market and go find dinner but I just had no appetite tho I felt a little hungry. I feel sick of eating dinner alone.
Then I started to wonder... Have I really neglected the rest of the world?
Ironically, my winamp seemed to have felt me and it's playing songs which describes how i feel now...
I am tired but not of work. I am beginning to wonder what is the meaning of coming back to my once most loved hangout. When home, I just want to be left alone. I am contradicting.
Of late, I wonder what's my sole existance on Earth? I know I sound selfish but I live for myself. I would never die for someone else (except God). kae.. I am talking rubbish. I am signing off to shower and sleep.
ability, not age that matters
Feeling: moody
Playing: sun yan zi's wo de ai
Location: home
it's weird. i haven't been feeling like this for quite sometime. i know i have been feeling tired but is it becos of work or everything, i do not know.
today at work, a customer from Japan came to the office for a meeting. i tried so hard to understand what the whole business is about during the discussion, but i couldn't. i felt hopeless at one point of time. the ironic thing, the customer told my boss that i was doing a pretty good job. i was happy yet disappointed with myself for not doing better.
told myself that it's abilities, not age that matters. a few told me that i am pushing myself too hard, but i do not know when to stop. i do not even know how to stop pushing myself. i just do not want to disappoint my boss who placed such high hopes on me and the people who gave me the chance to be at where i am.
in fact, i feel like i am the luckiest girl alive to have gotten this job. contented actually.
tell me i am not a workaholic at the age of 20 yrs old.......
wait.. did i just contradict myself? i am a screw-up.
arh... i am just tired. shall stop blogging.
nights.
present surfing
Feeling: full full
Playing: power 98
Location: TSP
Okay... i admit, i am being lazy. And so i went present surfing online.... 3 things came to my mind instantly. *winks*
My current electric Toothbrush is dying on me... So need to get new one. LOL!
Oral B - Triumph
A picture speaks a thousand words. Wahahahhahaha...... New Casio Sheen. I saw it on a magazine and taadaa... Now it's on my blog. *drools* I wanttt.....
Need I say more? This phone is the talk of the town. Tho I think presentation totally looks crappy cos it's very bulky but the functions... Orgasmic~!
Bye Bye N91. Hello N80~!Hm... I can't wait for 5.50pm. Altho I have lots of stuff to finish but I want to get out of the office~!!! So tired. Gonna meet Qi and Hans tonight. Hee...
screwed up tuesday
Feeling: screwed
Playing: power 98
Location: TSP
i am pms-ing larh!
grrr....
this morning, i can't get my make up right.
this morning, i can't get my stomach right.
this morning, i can't get my contacts right.
this morning, i can't get anything right.
i don't understand why i am always late (according to mummy's schedule),
i get freaking irritated that my mom has to nag at me all the time, from the time i step out of my bed to the time i reach the office.
sigh.
am i that horrible?
*ignore the above*
I am pms-ing.
*whines*
Happy mama's Day
Feeling: sleepy
Playing: Oasis by Don't Go Away
Location: Home
no more msn in the office
Feeling: crippled
Playing: Power 98
Location: TSP
Right... I am blogging for the very first time over at my new "home" in the office. Gawd... It's even busier here than where I was. Things go on and on, no stopping, close to being breathless at the end of the day but you know wad?? I LOVE MY NEW JOB!
It gives me satisfaction baby~!Hahaha... And the new place is more enclosed (in a way) cos I have higher partion behind me. And to my left, the desk is unoccupied except by a 32" LCD TV for testing purpose and lots of boxes of DVD, Marketing materials and whatnot rubbish. LOL! To my right, my girlfriend (who is temporary away on a HK trip), YY. Coolios!
Sigh... Then again, the office banned MSN. Of cos, the after effect left most of my colleagues feeling crippled and lost. The IT dept said that MSN eats away the bandwidth. BoOO!!! There's not even webmsn for us. wth.
First it was the online radio, now it's msn. what's next?
The company sorta sucks, but you know wad? I am here for my experience!!!! LOL... lalalalalalalaa......
Do I want to go back studying?Erh... I thought of doing my degree full time next year, but now, since I've gotten my "ideal" job, I will most prob hang in and do a part time degree. See if i've got any future here and then decide from there.
Life... Oh Life.....
Ah Gong's 80th Birthday
Feeling: still puffed up and about to go to sleep
Playing: Kyria's Heaven
Location: Home
Okay... my grandfather just turned 80 in May... Don't know which day tho. LOL.
so we had a family gathering of 4 tables. Check out the pictures.
Belated Deli's 21st Bday Photos
Feeling: awake but puffed up eyes
Playing: Kylie Minogue's In Your Eyes
Location: Home
I didn't brign my camera out that day, thus, i had to wait for Deli to send me the pictures. Now that I have them (like 2-3 weeks ago), I can blog!
We didn't take much pictures but I can remember what a good host Deli was. Not only that, he remains a very good friend. He's as good as wine.
:)
Happy 21st Deli~
Chalet at Costa Sand Pasir Ris
Feeling: puffy eyed
Playing: Switchfoot's Only Hope
Location: Home
I feel guilty updating only now but it's not like I had a choice becos the new job is taking alot out of me. I hardly have enough time to rest. I am not complaining tho, in fact, I love my new job! I just need to learn faster...
And so.... I have photos to share again. This time it's a departmental chalet. Not mine. Just that I am being invited by the kind Sarah who organised it. Thank you "big chilli". LOL....
It's a little messy cos I've too many pictures, thus, i decided on this creation. enjoy....
So... this isn't my new happy family. LOL! Just my neighbours.
