noisy skies
Feeling: irritated
Playing: power 98
Hm... I used to love the fact that boyflen is in the air force. As times go by, I start to realise it's not that fun to have a boyflen in the RSAF because of certain restrictions.
And now, it's really starting to piss me off...
The planes fly pass so often I can hardly have peace to study.
I should blame it on where I am living actually but it's still very noisy.
ARGH. Boyflen, can you please ask them to fly by another route?
updating finally
Feeling: calm
Playing: power 98
Happy Blessed Healthy Peaceful Lunar New Year to One and All!!!
I know my blog is lacking in substances the past one week because I was being lazy and lazy.
So… How your Chinese New Year went so far? I hope you collected enough
ang paos to give you enough blessings and luck for the whole golden boar year.
Mine went pretty well with it starting on Friday evening. I had reunion dinner with my maternal family but I have to say times have changed; dinners were no longer the same as before. Oh well, got to move on.
And on Saturday, I spent the whole day catching up on CSI (Las Vegas) Season 7 and had two reunion dinners. One was with my family and the other with Kris’ family.
Then came Sunday, the first day of the lunar new year. It started off with church, then to Kris’ granny’s place to pay our respects and ended at my grandparents’ place. At both sides, we played a little game of black jack and we won enough money to cover our movie date for Monday evening.
FYI, every bet was less than $0.50. :D
This year, it was a little different from the past twenty one years that I had. On the second day of CNY, I had to wake up at 6.30am and send mama to the Budget terminal because she went for a short holiday to Bangkok with my third auntie and my cousins.
After dropping her off, Kris and I went to ECP to have breakfast. :)
Rather usual for my daily routine.
And the rest of the days were a bore with me watching more CSI and Desperate Housewives and TV programs.
The only interesting thing I did yesterday was going to Holland V to try the “Holland Village Katong Laksa” which wasn’t very nice and did a little marketing at Cold Storage.
After that, I came home to cook dinner. It was terrible. I should have bought pork instead of chicken and boiled the soup separately from the macaronis.
Another fascinating thing I did, I went for afternoon Ash Wednesday Mass just now at
SMOTA. I almost forgot that it was a day of abstinence and fasting. Gosh! I sinned because I ate ham and bread for breakfast when I was supposed to stay away from meat. Anyway, eating to me is just to keep my stomach from giving me more problems. So I should actually be abstaining and fasting from something else. I can’t think of what yet, except watching TV and waking up early.
Hm… Maybe that’s what I should do for the next forty days. Why? It’s a period of Lent in the Catholic calendar. Jesus suffered in the desert for forty days and I forgot what happened. Yes, I am ashamed. Anyway, I know this is a time for me to give up and take up something that will help me in life and make me a better person.
Right now, I can feel myself drifting in and out of the depress state and I want to change that!
And I have this very bad habit of canceling all my original plans if I feel down. I wish I could change that. And life will be better.
By the way, I am supposed to study for my accounting exam and I am so dead because I have yet to start on anything. I have moved from my room to the kitchen to study so that I get less distracted but Pearl got to me when I carried her here. Argh… I got to login to curtin and start reading notes.
For the time being, cheerio…
P.S.: It’s weird how I like studying in food-related places. My room is very well equipped but I rather sit on the hard wooden chair in my kitchen and study. I am weird and homely. I love being at home. Give me another week of doing nothing please!
tai-chi session
Feeling: pissed
Playing: power 98
I am a staff of TSP. You are a staff of TSP. He is a staff of TSP. She is a staff of TSP. They are also the staff of TSP.
But why must you be so
yaya-papaya?
You also! Sho papaya!
I am not an assistant to any of you. No respect!
Humph. I help you do not MUST do for you. Understand?
*angry*
You have things to do, I also what!!
Outside of work, yeah, friend friend but got to draw that line when it comes to work. Don’t push it! Otherwise, I request for the work to be thrown back to you. You do yourself.
And you! So free right? Still don’t want to help. *pui* grr…
All want to play tai-chi. Push here, push there.
Very smart hor?
Ding dong bell!
P.S.: Happy Valentine's!
Edit:
No freaking mood to work.
I have so many things to follow up but I can’t get moving much because I have 2 ulcers irritating me, a sore back, feverish-heaty body, giddy spells and a boss breathing down my neck.
My table is in a mess.
I am waiting for 5.50pm to come and go clock out.
I am unhappy at work.
It’s one of those days… I just had to complain.
Finally Friday (FF)
Feeling: pissed
Playing: power 98
Finally Friday (FF). I am not going to TGIF (Thank God it’s Friday) because this weekend is going to be a very tiring and stressful weekend.
Friday night, project.
Saturday morning, project.
Saturday afternoon, class.
Sunday, project and study for exam on Monday.
Monday, study for exam and exam in the evening.
So why should I have thankful? Grr…
Wait!
I changed my mind.
TGIF! TGIF!
I don’t have to take leave to study. I don’t have to face my *ahem* boss. I can sleep late and wake up later.
I can go on and on but I won’t.
I don’t even know why I blogged. I am just unhappy with certain issues at work. Just complaining.
I am getting back to work.
what a morning...
Feeling: upset
Playing: power 98
It gets pretty depressing and tiring after hearing certain words over a period of time. It puts you down.
I can understand why I rather stay late at work than to be at home.
*pouts*
I finally understand why I feel more comfortable (emotionally and mentally) in my small one by one meter cubical. I spend so much time in this area that I have grown attached to this place whether I like it or not. It’s scary.
I also wish I could sleep less and not have problems waking up in the morning but I am terribly tired and my body feels weak on days when I am really exhausted. Why would I want to skip work if I love working? Sigh. I am just tired and I really need rest.
Alrighty. I am getting back to work.
I am torn between working late and going home early to do my project and study for my exam.
I wonder if
they know what I face at work? Not just the workload alone but the surrounding environment issues too.
No matter what, I am alone most of the time and I have to face and handle problems myself. *Nods*
Gambateh, Sharon!
I cannot give up. I must be more motivated even though I can’t find my goals at the moment.
why like that one?
Feeling: i can't remember
Playing: power 98
I feel that my work environment should be how it is now; quiet enough, just enough colleagues around.
It’s seven o’clock. One hour into the overtime. Most of my colleagues should be home or happily enjoying their CNY shopping.
I should be home doing my accounting project but I have been so used to working overtime that my bio-clock is tuned to the fact that other than studying days, my office hours only end at eight in the evening.
I like this feeling of having only myself in the area. No pressure of colleagues coming up to me and demand certain things.
I like this feeling because I love working?
Gawd! What did I just said?
I am starting to believe that studying too much is evil. That’s why I have to keep reminding boyflen, “don’t study after you ord okay? It’s a waste of money and time and effort. Studying part time very
xin ku, must worry about school fees, projects, results, achieving your attendance, examinations. On top of that, got to learn to handle your lazy group members. Don’t study larh…”
All along I thought I can perform better at practical than academically, hence shown. I manage better at work than in school.
I am not discouraging people from further their studies but if you think you cannot make it in school, just go and “chiong” in the work society and gain those experiences. Surely, work experience is treasured. Then again, if your company doesn’t want to hire you because you only have a PSLE cert, don’t come blame me arh.
I can say this because I have a diploma, enough to let me earn a place in Toshiba. *dances*
Aiya, said the above too soon. My boss decided to give me more tasks. I am off. Shall blog soon.
and he left me with these wise words after talking to me for almost half an hr...
"don't work too late arh!"
Sad, he talk to me for so long and then he left for home and ask me don't work so late. Now I am the only one left in the division.
grrr... time to chiong home.
rattling....
Feeling: in pain
Playing: power 98
Location: home
Okay, I have three hours and nine minutes more to go before my alarm rings to wake me up for work and i am still not asleep.
I got no freaking idea why can't i sleep. it's as though someone put lots of caffine in my dinner or the medication the doctor gave me today (oh yar, i was on MC) was to keep me awake.
argh!
all i know is my right big toe hurts like hell. it's the in-growth again. every month, i ought to go to STRIP and see my pedicure-ist and she will work magic on my toes. But this month busy leh. I haven't even go for my waxing! sigh...
i made a very major decision by cutting my toe nails. It takes 3 months to get a reasonable length but I snapped it off in 3 minutes because i wanted to get to the part where it hurts but it was so pain i cannot do it.
so pain until i had to take panadol.
eh.. did i make sense in the above content?
anyway, i have set my hi-fi on timer for the 3rd time already. I really need to sleep.
Was it because I did too much calculation just now? Or am i too worried about my exam and project?
Can't be Kris.
I KNOW! My stupid toe.
Why isn't the panadol working?! I am on the verge of taking the second dose! faster work and make it pain no more!!!!
*cries*
I just want to sleep.
just blogging...
Feeling: pain
Playing: channel 8
Location: home
alright. i managed to dig some photos out to blog... Not in any order.
Damn disgusting larh. I thought this kind of things only happen in the movies.
i went to
spa esprit. Check it out larh..
me, boyflen and us.
:)
before xmas at marina square. was testing boyflen's new camera.
junior and me. ignore the hair and background.
The below two photos were taken at boyflen's celebration in one of Liang Court Jap Restaurant.
Don't disturb me arh...
Bleah! I warned you.
Self-explanatory.
at marina square again on new year's eve night. i like GV corns. yum.
so tired of living, you know?
Feeling: so tired of living
Playing: power 98
Damn sad. I kind of regretted starting my degree. I do not have enough time. I know studying part time means I have to sacrifice my personal time and study harder during my free nights.
How many free nights do I exactly have a week then?
Monday and Wednesday is school nights.
Tuesday is church nights.
Thursday and Friday will be overtime nights at work.
Saturday and Sunday will be spent doing projects, catching up on my sleep and spending time with boyflen or mummy.
Very often, I have little or no time left for myself.
Very demoralized because I failed my cb102 test by 2 marks. It’s making me feel that I am really not suited for studying. Worst comes when I can’t concentrate on studying and absorbing whatever that is printed on my notes, I feel totally stupid.
Sigh.
I am very depressed and demoralized over this issue.
Reminds me of all those bad times back in secondary school and poly.
I feel like a failure all over again.
What good am I for?
I can’t find many positive points about myself that I can offer to the society or the people around me.
So tired of living, you know? How long more must I go on like this?
