sasa
Feeling: addicted
Playing: 98.7FM, Gravity By Embrace
Location: Home
i am addicted to
Sasa !
MNG eau de toilette
The sales girl at Sasa gave me a sample of the above and gosh... i am so hooked onto the fragrance.. so nice. hahah.. got jj to get it for me for our 7th month anniversary..
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DEAR: go sasa and buy it. cos sasa is a good place to shop~ i am going to shop more at sasa.. lalalala~
Ladies: you should too!
Gentlemen: TRY SASA~!
new year eve's eve
Feeling: excited
Playing: 98.7FM, Over and Over By Nelly & Tim Mcgraw
Location: Home
phew~ the day is finally coming to an end.
woke up late tis morning, at ard 7.20am. i wanted to go for 8am MMSP lab, the mod tat i am appealing to take tis semester, but i couldn't wake up. slept too "early" last night. i decided to steal some more rest but forgot to set my alarm to 8.30am. the next time i woke up was 9.20am. argh! i am super late!
I agreed to meet Nadia at 10am in Clementi central, but at 9.20am, i was still in bed! Jumped up and quickly sms her. she told me she was still at home.. *heng* so i postponed to 10.30am in Jurong Point. hehehe..
i was late by 5 minutes. Had a real nice hug when we met. aiya! forgot to take picture~ anyway, we had our "breakfast" in banquet. the halah food court. talked and talked.. until we headed to school and work.
in school, more lectures. then it rained real heavily at 2.30pm. ha~ luckily i go mummy to pick me up. got home and tried to save my blog's pictures. sth happened to my hosting site. anyway, headed out at 4.50pm to Jurong Point AGAIN for dinner.. and got myself some stuffssssssss...
Daddy bought for me CK one at SaSa for $76. *thrilled* it's my 3rd bottle. I tried other perfumes but i still like CK one.. Loyal..
Eh.. kOr, mummy, daddy n I started walking around JP. wah lau.. it's a super boring place.. had dinner at kopitiam. then went to Watsons to get more stuffsssssss... ha~ secret.. =x
wEeeeeEeee.. rather satisfied. so now.. i can sleep.
tmr i will be going out~!! Yaya!! with QQ and Hans and JJ and... dunno.
*looks at time* arh.. only 10.30pm and mummy is forcing me to sleep~?! hahahahaha.. so early~!!!
just pictures
jj and i at hereen waiting for the shops to open on x'mas eve.
kOr, me and Pepper.
kOr, me, Pepper and Bobby.
what number are you?
| You Are the Helper |
| 2 You always put on a happy face and try to help those around you.
You're incredibly empathetic and care about everyone you know.
Able to see the good in others, you're thoughtful, warm, and sincere.
You connect with people who are charming and charismatic. |
always look on the bright side of life
Feeling: giddy, pain in the head
Playing: 98.7FM, Sunday morning by Maroon 5
Location: home
wOot~ school today was weird, wrecked, tensed, jittery... get it?
my classmate, S, came in late for lab class. my lecturer, Tai, always repeats himself, "If you are late, please make a discrete entry." well, S did make a discrete entry but she started talking as soon as she sat down.
And whamp! ALL eyes on her.. I meant Tai's eyes only. He stopped talking and insist she gets out of class. S being a cheery innocent person.. she apologised with a rather unsatisfied tone which agitated Tai further. He said her apology was not sincere. He asked the class and the whole class sided S by saying it was. Tai got even more annoyed and pointed towards the door. He actually invited her to leave. S refused and sort of talked back. oh oh~ trouble brewing..
then SX, another classmate, told him off. which made Tai super mad. Me being the class leader couldn't even calm the situation down. *panicked* i tried to apologised but my voice seemed unheard. really scary.
in the end, W, another classmate, told Tai to cool it and start teaching.. ha.. W said," Aiyo.. dun be so petty larh.. Men dun behave this way." (in mandarin) super funny!
Tai gave up cos the whole class was too united. but he didn't let us off.. while we were doing our lab.. he contiuned talking.. *rolls eyes* manz.. wat's with his ego?! Well, the good thing was everyone ignored him.
tension built up already larh.. next time when i go for class... i will be under more stress cos the Tai seems to be "interested" in me. weird lecturer.. i have never ever met him and he told me i looked farmiliar to him. even asked me which secondary school i was from.. ha~ super duper weird lecturer..
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end of class. the whole day of broadband communication. tutorial and lab.
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had KFC for lunch. couldn't finish the zinger burger. but managed to swallow my cheese fries and finished my pepsi.
i lost appetite since school started. my time table is planned in such a way that i don't have lunch time except on Wed cos of my FYP.
i wanted to force myself to finish the whole burger cos i knew the guys would "lecture" me for not finishing my food. oh come on.. i am the only girl in the group of 8~! Girls dun eat much.. (let's see who are there... E, W, SX, J, KS, YF, ZH and Me~ ) True enough.. tho i was all quiet in the corner, they noticed that i finished my food too quickly and caught me~! Aiyaaa~ hehehe.. but they are one bunch of people who really crack me up. i feel quite safe in their company. (=
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i called the lecturer i/c of my appeal.. he said that the principal is on leave so the board can't come up with a decision. wth manz.. super pissed. week 3 of school. still no reply. freaking arseholes leh..
well, i am determined to do all 7 mods. so i really hope that my prayers be answered. I promise to study hard. tho it's stressful and i seem to be in some sort of mental illness state... i will still promise to study hard. and get results enough to let me grad. pleaseeeee....
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i got into SP INNOVEX! weEeeeeEEeeee.... that means i get to display my 3rd year project to the public and school.. must jiayou~ that's why i am going to ask my shifu for help~! JACOB SOO!!!!! hahahhaa... going to ask him to help me with my iadt project too.
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i got mummy to pick me up after school. told her i want to see doctor cos my headache is causing me lots of giddiness and sleepless nights. she said must go polyclinic then get them to refer me to specialist. then ask them to scan my brain to see if there's anything inside. (hmm.. got brain loh.. maybe empty hor? *giggles*) [mummy is angry.. aiyo.. poor mummy.. Daddy stop making mumy angry larh.]
anyway, debated for a while and she said no. then she asked.. can it be stress? *duhz* aiyaa.. watever the case.. my headache is making me sick. [damn. kena scolded for sitting in front of the computer. sianz.]
how to tell her my headache is not the normal headache? sigh.. so hard to tell her things cos she jumps at me as soon as i open my mouth. haiyo.. ask me to sleep now~? shakes head..
tell me who likes to be controlled? especially when it comes to their own life.. i do things whenever i feel like it larh.. my free time at home leh~!!!!
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ha.. i got her to buy me 2 big tubs of ben's and jerry's ice cream. lalalalala~ thinking back.. i acted like a little girl. "u promised to buy for me the last time.. it's been months.." wHoooops.. hahaha.. she gave in and bought for me.
angry leh. u promise your kid sth and u don't do it. tho i am 19 but it doesnt mean that u can break your promise kae...
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oh yar... SP got a donation drive. it's drive thru... come come donate leh.. it's at T12. Dover MRT. SP Convention Centre. There.. There..
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jj is back to the office. haiyo.. poor darling. so many things to do. *sayang*
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thank you to those who sms or msn me. really appreciate every thought of it.
weekend happenings
Feeling: more relaxed, a little hungry, worried cos jj's having TP now
Playing: 98.7FM
Location: on my way home on 99
24th dec
I woke up very early for school. Friday is the only day that I have to wake up at 6.45am for school. *glomps* sucky eh? I just wished that school would end really soon, like in another 16 weeks. It’s already the 3rd week of school. *jumps*
8am to 10am, I attended a class called CSW. Forgot the long name. ha.. (currently I can’t recall anything. Don’t understand why either but I have been like this the last few weeks. Give me time to recover kk.. I am slowly with help from a few people. Hee!)
10am to 12pm. I was supposed to go for my IADT lecture but I skipped it. Erm.. the mod that I am supposed to repeat? Yucks.. why should I spoil my christmas spirit cos of a sucky lecture taught by a dull lecturer. *gryns*
So.. I asked to meet JJ at Orchard so that I can go shop for my last minute x’mas presents. Hmm.. didn’t spend much larh.. cos not much people to buy for. Hehe.. I am on budget this year. So by 11am.. I am roaming the streets of Orchard Road.. and most shops aren’t open. Nods nods.. they are lazy people right?
-mind block- can’t seem to remember what happened. Only remembered I was home in time for dinner, which was steam boat. Hehe.. Everyone present. Daddy, Mummy, Auntie Dot, Shaun, JJ, me, Bobby and Pepper.
Then I went for mid night mass in St Francis of Assisi. Came home and slept till 12noon on x’mas day.
25th dec
slacked around with JJ till 5pm then headed to Katong. Mummy insisted that we go for mass before going for my aunt’s chalet..
at 6pm. We ended up in Holy Family church. Only to realized that we are attending a Chinese Mass!!! Hahahhahaa.. didn’t understand a single thing that was going on.. but only caught the message that the priest gave during his homily. That was to place God above all things else.. It’s rather hard to do so in our present contacts but I am sure it can be done with a lot of self sacrificing.. which I am still not able to let go.. not yet.. not yet.. I want to study first. I want to make buy money. I want a comfortable life.. not yet not yet..
anyway, by 7.45pm. we are at East Coast’s Coasta Sand Chalet. Having BBQ! Yumms.. sent JJ back then headed home.
26th dec
Slept till 9 plus. Then had to go to Sunday mass. Lalalala.. after mass.. we headed to Angeline’s house for x’mas lunch. Then then then at 1.30pm!!! mummy decided to go to Orhcard by MRT. Ha! To sign up for broadband1500. *dances*
We went back to Toa Payoh to collect the van then headed to East Coast for steam boat dinner.
27th dec
I went to school as normal. 10am to 2pm. I went back to the office to collect some stuff before heading down to Orchard to get Nadia a present. Hee.. I met JJ again.. (wondering why he so free is it? Cos he’s on long long leave till today!) And we got a queue number from Hello! JJ has finally decided to sign for broadband.. but only 512mb. It’s better then his dial up larh. Hehehe.. can finally be able to chat with him online for long long time.. the last time we had such a long chat was more than 6 months ago. Anyway, knowing that he is getting BB just makes my heart jump. This means that he will be online more often..
28th dec
Today.. nothing much. Class as normal. And now I am home . hahaha.. waiting for JJ to call me and tell me good news!
3rd day of x'mas
Feeling: giddy, light-hearted, urgency to get some stuff done
Playing: chatterings of classmates
Location: T12A405, Computer 15
GOOD AFTERNOON!
lalalalala~ Tis's the season to be jolly... kualalalala.. lalalalaa....
I received 2 bags, money, chocolates, ipod mini and countless joy this Christmas~
2 bags from my Godsis and my distant cousin.. chocolates from one of the church aunties, money from my aunts and ipod mini from SINGTEL BROADBAND~
Ha! i got mama to sign for the 1500 plan. yea yea.. and it came with a free ipod mini. woooOoohOoooo.. i am waiting for it to be in the shops before i can collect it.
class starts~ blog later~
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You have an intense kiss! You and your partner
connect when you kiss and you forget about the
rest of the world. Hey, call me!!! ^_~
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merry x'mas
a short update
Feeling: headache
Playing: 98.7FM, traffic news
Location: Home
let's see, i met Mr Toh, the lecturer in charge of my appeal case and kinda got him to set up a meeting with the Director. weEeeee... and i did on Tuesday. So Dr Chong, director of EEE, asked me to write another letter to SP's Principal, Mr Low Wong Fook. YiPppiiee!!! Handed it up on Wed. I got a call from Mr Toh on Thurs and he asked me if i can handle 7 mods in this semester.. I told him it's possible. And he asked what about the clashing of my time table, i told him only my tutorial clashes, which is one hour on monday. I told him i can make private arrangements with my tutor and get him to coach me. Ha~ finally~ i see some hope.
been so worried this whole week tat i didn't have mood to do anything. all i did was, school then home. cried a few times this week, and got myself in quite bad shape now.. having very terrible headaches cos i couldn't sleep well. and the 2 ulcers i have in my mouth, enough to kill me.. to top it up, i am going thru PMS.. forever hungry. ha~
tonight, i will b having steam boat for dinner. then going for mid night mass~ weEEeee... Jesus Christ is born! Let's PARRRRTttTTTTY!
btw, i received a card from Jacob.. wEeEeee... just so happy that i have such nice friends around. giving me strength to carry on and encouraging me not to give up. I have a supportive mother and a understanding boyfriend~
And on this beautiful day, i would like to share my favourite Bible verse with all of you...
"Love is patient; love is kind;love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends. But as for prohecies, they will come to an end; as for tongues; they will cease; as for knowledge; it will come to an end. For we know only in part, and we prophesy only in part; but when the complete comes, the partial will come to an end. When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became an adult, I put an end to childish ways. For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then we will see face to face. Now I know only in part; then I will know fully, even as I have been fully know. And now faith, hope and love abide, these three; and the greatest of these is love."
1 Corinthians 13 : 4-13
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
just a little note
i got this little note from someone special. thanks a million. it brought smiles to my face.. i hope you don't mind. but just felt that there are actually people around me who cares.
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Hey lovely sweety
Decided to write you a nice short email because well... because lar. :)
I know things are going badly for you... But it's ok because I've also come to realize that you're a very strong girl who's able to stand up to it and live through it. *hugs* There may have been a few things you regret in the past but you're just so wonderfully amazing that it's great!
I feel really blessed to have a wonderful sister like you, so *hugs tightly* don't mind me when I'm going nuts too :P Haha. Gambate! I know you can do it!Merry Xmas love.
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moody sunday
Feeling: moody
Playing: nothing
Location: Home
something happened in the family (sth to do with my granny) this afternoon. sigh.. got me thinking..
is money that important?
if anyone dares to lay a finger on me.. i will report him to the police for molest!
Male Family Member: YOU! SHUT UP! If not I will slap you...
Me: *stomps out of the room* tot to myself... Men can be violent and sickening jerks. Damnit! I curse those men who hit a lady. He deserves to be HANG!
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my lecturer called me and asked to see me on monday, 9.15am. regarding my appeal. *prays*
i will give u an update tmr yer?
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my N6220 died on me last night. all my contacts are saved in the phone. sim card has got totally no contacts! *faints* Eh.. please sms me for the contact.
what happened?
i was transfering some files. so i cancelled cos it was too long. I was tired so i tot i would do it another day. BUT! my phone went blank and showed white screen only. I can't do anything about it but send it to Nokia care centre. I think they would upgrade my software, sort of reset everything. *cries*
back but still a little off
Feeling: off but mood-full
Playing: On bended knees by BoyzIIMen
Location: Home on the desktop
ha. finally back on my desktop. anyway, i'll give a little update on last weekend first then school week.. so bear with me. it's going to be a long long entry. *gryns*
friday 10 dec 2004
I met JJ at Cine only to find out that Umizaru (jap movie we were supposed to watch) was sold out cos of a private function. *faints.. both took leave to watch tis last screening leh..*
we headed to Hereen's NYDC for lunch. I had a plate of free baked rice becos i found a metal thingie in my rice. *faints* i called for the manager and he quickly apologised and offered to replace another plate but it was already half eaten so i declined and he said he'll not charge us for that! weeEEeee.... AND we got this!
it's called Love Potion. :/ strawberry at the bottom and vanilla ice-cream in the middle, topped with whip cream~~~ yummm... well, i only ate the whip cream, it's the least sweet item in it. *laughs*
so after lunch, i decided to go catch a 3pm movie.. and we watched Without a Paddle! super duper funny.. laugh until JJ had to cover my mouth..
still.. it was early cos i was meeting Qi and Hans for dinner.. (keith was meeting his bunch at Fisherman village) a get-together at last... we had Marche then went to Starbucks for a drink. Now.. the climax of the night...... it started to drip from the sky. (drip~?! laughs) we were sitted outside, no shelter. so i decided to call it a night and told them we shd head to Specialist centre for shelter before we get caught in the rain.. just as we stood up.. it poured!!!!
*panicked* I have a 11.55pm movie to catch at jurong point. I have one hour left to reach Boon Lay.. i am stuck. called JJ, he came in a CAB to pick me up. hahaha.. i boarded in the middle of the road. along the narrow roads of cine. hahahahaha.. well, the cab fare was expensive, considering the fact that JJ took from White Sand (pasir ris).. $25.10.
Well, movie ratings time. The Phantom of the Opera. Watch it only if you enjoy musicals.
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Saturday 11 dec 2004
rainned whole day. stayed home whole day. managed to pack my wardore. now it's neat neat. and i threw away a bag of clothes.. i think i passed it down to my cousins.. well, i dunno. mummy took it.
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Sunday 12 dec 2004
I went for mass at St Francis of Assisi (boon lay).. right after that, headed to Liang Court for lunch at Tung Lok Restaurant for Tim Sum with my grandparents, 2nd aunt & her daughter, 5th aunt, 6th aunt & her husband & her two kids; one boy one girl, mom and JJ.
Then to TM (Tampaines Mall) cos JJ was selling sth to someone on ebay and he promised to deliver it. *silly bf* I had my dose of Gelare again.. and mummy got me my first Samuel and Kevin shirt. ha~ it's red sleeveless..
I had dinner at West Coast Hawker Centre.. BBQ String Ray. yum. my choice.
Headed home to let JJ pack his stuff before heading to Ikea.
At Ikea, i bought, new wooden small drawers (on my table), a new side lamp, notice board, boxes aka containers and energy saving bulbs!
came home and did a little unpacking and cleaning.. ha! my room is soo much nicer!
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this week went by like a breeze. blink blink and it's the weekends! woOohoOOO... i love weekends becos i get to spend time with my dear dear.. i get to go out. i get to sleep later. i get to wake up later too.
Current mods:
Broadband Communications aka BCOM(core)
Internet Application Development aka IADT(repeat)
Technopreneurship aka TNP(core)
Communication Skills for Work aka CSW (core)
Broadband Network Technology aka BNTECH(elective)
Final Year Project aka FYP(core)
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monday - 10am-2pm
one lecture and one practical. the lecture ended fast cos it was introduction. the practical even faster, cos no program in the computers yet. laughs! It was IADT practical and my lecturer is the guy who wrote the book for our use!! damn cool except he's an Indian with very Indian accent, pretty hard to catch his words.. just got to try harder. then i went to JE popular to get some stuff for my room.
i just revamp my room. i am still in the mist of clearing my things and giving my room a new and cleaner and fresher and cosy and more wanted look.
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tuesday - 11am-4pm
one superb tutorial, an hour of IADT practical which allowed me to understand the program better and my elective (Broadband Network Technology) practical (3hours!) left before 2pm cos my favourite lecturer talked so fast and everything ended fast. besides, we don't have books to follow. ha~!
came home and slept for a while cos i had headache again. then i went to church for Charismatic.
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wednesday - 9am-3pm
had BCOM tutorial and Practical. erm.. 12pm-3pm is my allocated time for my FYP. I have a funny lecturer for BCOM tut and prac. He came late for our tut and told us he is changing our classroom. waited for him for 25min and he briefed us for 5min. humph. then when i reached the lab..
the front view.
side view. see a tower there.. we have 3 in there. it's said to be a million dollar lab.
side view. see the sky? bright and nice. love this lab. i will spent 5 hours each week in here.. goOoodiiee!
and my "boyfriend". ha! *pukes*
then FYP. we had the SP Innovex interview. (3rd project exhibition)
FYP lab. and my grp mates.. "pretending" to be hardworking but they are actually playing game. lol. oh yar, tat's Angel's laptop.
the other guy who was bored, came over and drew on my tablet.. Tat's actually Shixian aka Angel. hehe..
a picture of us.
we are spilt into 2 groups but under the same project. so the other group had their interview first.. we just wait. *dances ard*
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thursday - 12pm-3pm
heh.. TNP and BNTECH lecture. wow.. tiring. esp BNT. i shut down after 1.5 hrs.. oh well, the other 30mins i tried hard to listen.
met mummy for lunch in school. she came to pick me up to Ikea cos she wanted to buy me my standing lamp bulb and more frames.
i called the director's secretary and explained how things were not going too well for my appeal and she agreed to help me find out more. arh.. i called the lecturer i/c of my case, he was so negative. even mummy dun like his attitude. so i will still have to wait for my answer again. *worried & bothering*
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friday - 8am-12pm
wah.. finally.
super early! 8am class!! *faints* CSW. it prepares me for the interviews, resume, meetings.. blah blah.. 2 hours. i survived.
10am-12pm.. the lesson i dread most. IADT lecture. boy.. could have killed me. but i fought through and survived. =)
met keith at Orchard for lunch but ended up watching a 3.45pm movie at Lido. Ocean's Twelves. Erm.. confusing but funny.
I got my dosage of chocolate overload at gelare today! hee..
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well, now it's 12.07am. i blogged for almost 1.5hours already. hehe.. and i am going out for supper with Jacob. keke.. din have dinner. so i am hungry. besides, we are neighbour.. lalalala~ time to catch up.
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Thomas: Hang in there kk.. Unit life is tough but things will get better once your trainning is over. The sgt are just being bullies. be good~
Eugene: sorry i can't help.
JJ aka Keith: get Broadband soon larh~!
Francis: thanks for being my loyal reader.
not available
Feeling: not in the right state of mind
Playing: Channel 5, CSI
Location: Home
sorry peeps. i am currently away from my blog.
i need to sort some things out first.
i will be back.
in the meantime, everyone please take good care of yourself. the weather is bad.
enjoy the christmas sales and holidays..
bus ride home
it actually took me quite some time to actually find out what is happening to me.
sigh..
it seems like i am resisting some force that is being put on me.
just like when you are being kept in an enclosed area and the walls begin to draw closer
to you. and your initial reaction is to try to stop the wall from moving towards you.
i am sorry to certain people for acting so "violently" towards what they were trying to make me do, understand or see...
why don't you let the puzzle solve by itself?
why don't you let the cocon break free itself?
don't you know that by helping the cocon break free.. you will actually harm it?
their wings will be smaller cos the fluids are not being squeezed into their wings.
ha. i have said my piece. i am going home to reflect more.
-on the bus home-
first day of school
Feeling: excited
Playing: nothing
Location: SP, T12A405
It's the first day of school. I am pretty much excited. much that i really hate programming but someone is trying hard to make me like IADT. which is pissing me off. why just can't this particular person just say.. everything will be over soon. why must he insist that i change my attitude towards programming?
It's just like making me like Chinese when i am in primary 3. I had no choice but to study. i still did and what i get for hating it? Canning from my mother. sigh..
*coolssss*
sigh.. I had my first lesson of the day in MLT2. It was called Broadband communication. It doesn't look like a very easy module but i am determined to pass it and get through with my diploma.
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sometimes, i just don't understand why some people can't read me while others can.. the ones closest to me can't but the ones futherest away from me can. sigh.. it's so depressing to know it.
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you know what? I am in a class full of guys. I HATE it. really.. kinda feel threatened. it's so scary. in a new class. all alone. noone to talk to me. sigh.. not like everyone is like me, when i see someone new, i would go up and say.. HI.
well, the only comforting thing is that i am back in my old seat which i had my name invisibly written on it.
arhh.. something changed. the layout of my lab. no more back facing lecturers.
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the lecturer just came in. an indian male. gawdd.. let's hope i can understand him.
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i am going home after this lesson. that's comforting to know. and to that someone, i don't hate programming and show attitude to the lecturer if he's nice to me too.. but i don't see a reason why i should give him face when he is such an arse. aiya... tell you for what? you also don't understand. you have always been getting good grades in school anyway.. and you were always the teachers' pet unlike me.. i have to repeat IADT cos i provoked the lecturer that is why the examination board don't see a reason why i should pass... right?
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I just hope the person reviewing my case would give me a second a chance.. everyone deserves it don't we?
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btw, my claws won't bite you if you don't poke me. *imagine crabs* And why would i want to show my attitude to someone just becos i don't like the module? and again.. why am i telling you these? you don't understand.
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oh yar.. please, you can't change my world... NEVER~! Don't you ever dare step into my territory again.. if not i will make sure my claws bite till you bleed to death.. NEVER EVER AGGRAVATE ME!!
minutes before lunch
Feeling: excited, nervous, giddy
Playing: 98.0FM, some song
Location: TSP
it's 21 minutes before lunch time.
I have been rather productive today. I managed to checked through 3 files.. that is 248 invoices. *dances* not too bad larh.. Since i am going on half day un-paid leave, i had to hurry and do as fast as i could so that i can help the lady clear her work and she will not be so stressed up.
Anyway, i just called my student counsellor, Mr Lee.. I asked him when will i be able to know about the results. grrr... he told me he don't know. *faints* but he said by end of next week, the school will give me an answer. argh.. I REALLY DOWAN TO REPEAT IADT.
tho i have very much accepted the fact that i may have to repeat one semester for just one module.. stinking IADT. but there is always another joyous occasion and news that i don't have to repeat.
If God's answer to my prayer of whether i should go to work first or study straight away is to make me repeat.. then it's a really horrible answer. I am sorry Father in heaven but yar.. it stinks!
I really want to get out of school. It seems like i always leave a school with bad memories. haiyo.. what is wrong with me? or maybe people in school are not accepting me for how i am.. especially the EEEC people. they are a total bunch of stinking people.. i refer to certain seniors back last two years who are full of themselves and act just like elderly people.. who can't change their mindset to accept new ideas. Hypocrites actually.. say this do another. Backstabbers.. treat ppl nice but stab them at the back.. oh well.. politics... i have had enough of it already.
luckily the LEO club isn't like tis. peaceful little club. the lesser the crowd the lesser the politics. or maybe even none at all.. *frozen due to cold air-conditioning*
wah.. i just bitched about my school. manzz.. it feels so much better. no offences people. i don't usually like to talk bad about people but just that someone just triggered off the bitchy button yesterday and i just had to let it out somewhere.. so here... it lands.
bah..
argh.. i forgot what i wanted to say again. *smacks* trash leh..
aiya.. today i am going for a movie at Orchard. 3pm. some jap show that keith wanted to watch. and today is the last screening. so i took half day off just for him. lalala.. my idea to watch larh. hehe..
then i will be meeting Qi and Hans for dinner at marche. wooOohoOoo.. so want to hug them. hehe.. hopefully someone brought camera.
then i will be meeting Keith for another movie at jurong point. Phantom. 11.55pm show. join us anyone? i am sitting in the 'N' row.
oh yar hor.. the oreo chocolate sticks.. guess what? I found them in Isetan. but it cost $3.95 while i got it for $2.60. but no more le. *sniffs* come on.. everyone CRY!
hahahhaa.. i am mad. i am leaving. i will blog again. *gives away all my love* taa taaa everyone..
happy weekend!
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Thomas: *hugs* wah... super duper happy that you are still around in my life.. hehe.. and congrats on ur admission to combat eng. Laughs. go plant more bombs baby.. lalalala...
Eugene: your leg hor.. haiyo.. get well soon larh.
Mummy: even though i know you don't know abt this blog but erm.. my head still hurts leh.. do u think it's the tumour acting on it? eating away all my brain cells and stuff? how how? mummy.. i dowan to leave you yet.
Keith: *ignores*
Jacob: ask you to smile cos you smile le, look more pleasant.. if not so scary. like monster.. lalalala..
ah ma's birthday party
I had a smashing time at my granny's place. so many laughters and fun..
Meet the cooks..
One of the dishes.. lalalala~
before cooking
aftercooking
"happy birthday...lallalalalala."
cut cake together.. so loving..
tasting part of the cake.. my cousin, joyce and second aunt.
a nicely taken photo of joyce and er-yi. Joyce is taking her O's next year and she laughs at anything that others say.
my xiao yi and de jing. this guy is acting cool.. call him handsome so many times also dowan to smile for me. anyway, he jus finished PSLE.
All together.
guilt washed away
Feeling: guilt free
Playing: 98.0FM,
Location: TSP
i tot i was the cause of the break up.
ha..
but i am not.
so i am guilt free.
and please.. go for her if you truly love her.
don't give up on another true love of yours.
whatever past we had.
whatever hurtful wounds we had.
whatever memories we shared.
Let it be erased and washed away.
Let life be filled with joy, hope and love.
Let life be a happy ending or better.. no ending.
Smile for an everlasting mile..
stay happy and guilt-free!
Yiippiiee!! I still have JJ. I still have a friend. Both are still with me. I tot i lost you but now.. we are back tgt as friends. i just hope things would remain simple and our friendship platonic.
cheerioss.. and God bless..
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Mummy: I think i may be brain tumour.. i keep getting headaches and dizzy spells.
poo-poo^infinity
Feeling: a little sick cos of my blocked nose, puffy eyes, scared, worried, anxious
Playing: 98.0FM, traffic news
Location: TSP
"it's 9th december. there are lots of traffice jams. along the AYE, ECP... blah blah.. please be careful when you are on the road.. and if you have any traffic news.. please call.. blah blah.. Traffic news proudly brought to you by SPH.." (i think)
Kelly Clarkson got a new song! "Since you've been gone"
what happened? what happened? what happened?
I still hate programming. in fact, even more. i can't imagine if i have to be put through programming again for another semester with the same lecturer, the same notes, the same project, the same attitude towards programming.. but different classmates, different life, different path that i am forced to take..
the original path:
grad in mid april 2005, work for a few mths, try for SMU.
the forced-to-take path:
grad in nov 2005, work till god-knows-when... SMU? can forget about it
larh.
sigh..
i went to school to meet my school's student counsellor, Mr Lee Ee Tat, at 11am. He invited another student development office, Ms Lim Ai Choo, to sit in cos she's taking her Masters in counselling.. both from SP dept of student & alumni affairs..
grrr... it was rather hard to open up cos i don't know where to start and i am pretty much tired of repeating my story over and over again..
so from 11am - 12.30pm, my mom and i tried to make the counsellors understand our situation. I told them it's a very crucial decision for us, cos if i have to repeat it means that my mom have to wait for another 6 mths to make some decisions concerning my family.. I really want to finish my dipolma asap and get on with life.. at least i will be able to help my mom with the house hold bills and stuff that requires to lessen her burden.
right now, i am neither here nor there.. pretty caught up in the middle.
well, the conclusion..
They will present my case to the director and I will have to wait for the answer. As long as I have not heard a 'NO' from the school, it means that i will still have a chance.
sigh.. (oOpss.. the lady came to ask me about the invoices.. better hurry and get back to work.) I just dowan to repeat okie! I admit, i hate failing and this is the FIRST time i have ever encounter such a thing called "FAILED" in my examination results. I never had an 'E' (subsidary pass, now known as 'D-'), i have been a average B/C student.. I worked hard for what i deserve. I just DOWAN to repeat that freaking, poo-poo^infinity IADT!
*begs* let me get through!
gggrrrr... last night, i kinda broke down. I cried and told mummy that i dowan to come to work cos i dowan to see people. it just gets so frightening. i have reached my limits and beyond. for the past few weeks, months maybe.. i couldn't control my temper. i threw it at mummy and keith.. sigh.. i am helpless. i do not know what i should do.. but i am glad that mummy understands what i am going through and she helped me through everything.
the 'sayang' she gave me last night just comforted me so much.. just like how someone pats and strokes his/her pet.. the same feeling i had. then she said i have to go to work. she doesn't want me to stay at home in case i do something silly. *giggles*
sidetrack: the counsellor asked if i had any tots of death. i replied, "yes but i have my hopes. so i dare not do anything silly."
oh well.. i admit again that many things i just wished i could just jump off the building so that all will just go away. not knowing what will happen after death either. but for that moment, i just couldn't take it all in anymore..
i trust God that he will make a way for me. and I hold on to my Faith and Hopes..
Hopes to have a better life for mummy and my future family. I have dreams of doing business management in SMU. Then i would major in marketing. I would get a job in the sales line of a big MIC. I would get married at 26. Maybe a car at 27, if my pocket allows.. have a condo in tanjong rhu before having my first kid at 28 or 29.. then the second at 31. *giggles* enough? i actually wanted 4. *blushes* if i can get a twins at one of my pregnancy.. tat would be a blessing!! *blushes* then... by 55, i would have an established company of my own.. hehe.. it would be a lingerie shop. *laughs* maybe a little cafe like place for mummy.. her cooking is the best! esp for western cooking. *drools* then.. i don't know already. hahaha.. never plan that far yet..
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anyway, the day before, a lecturer called me regarding my appeal letter. that sickening poo-poo.. was so rude. even mummy dun like him.
arh.. oh yer.. i managed to plan my time table (in case i don't get thru with my appeal) in a way that i will be doing 6 mods this semester and 1 the last semester. hahaha.. mummy likes the idea too.. then i can spend the last semester working.. and less stress. *smiles*
in the meantime, everyone TAKE CARE!
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Eugene: Congrats! pass loh!
Jacob: smile smile smile..
Joann: thanks babes for visiting 'me'..
Keith: giraffe beh.. gelare.. lalalalala! I wait.
smelly house
Feeling: puffy eyes, sleepy
Playing: Channel 5, CSI
Location: Home
Gosh! Gawd! Gooses! Poooooo! my house stinks! cos i have two MALE dogs in my house! Arghhh... they peed every where.. except the rooms. eeyyyyyeeeewwwww.... yucks!
super duper smelly.. want to bathe the both of them but no time.. eek! can't stand them..
anyway, my appeal isn't sounding good. i will keep u updated once i seem the student counsellor tmr morning. in the meantime, take care everyone.
lazy monday night
Feeling: pain in the head, uncomfortable in the stomach
Playing: Channel 5, American's Next Top Model
Location: Home
to him:
i know i made a mistake in comparing again.
i am sorry.
but i want you to know that...
noone has ever been better than you have been to me.
noone has ever loved me the way you do.
noone has ever been so patient to me like you do.
noone can replace you in my heart.
noone can be you.
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i guess it's the long hours i spent in front of my lappy today that caused my headache and the inconsistent timings that i take my meals that landed me in what i am in now..
i could sense that mom is getting worried that i don't take my meals, esp dinner, on time or often. she is worried that i might fall ill. well, like i have mentioned in my previous entries, i have been falling ill very often this past six month, and it is really making me very weak. I need lots of sleep and i get tired easily..
but i am very thankful that i have Mom and Keith with me all the time. together with God and His angels looking after me. *grateful*
i just wished i was healthier. I stay out in the sun a little longer, and i get bad headaches. i wished i could be like how i was in primary school.. playing netball and being the "captain". I missed those days. young, innocent, strong, mature, happy, determined, well-liked. Those were the days.. kids, everything just seem so simple. now, i have learnt that life isn't as simple as abc. *gryns* I have to be a fighter to survive.
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i didn't not do what i was supposed to do on my list. i was on my comp and then tv all the way.
first it was "bewitched", then channel 8 from 7 till 10pm, now.. the model show. *tv-holic* no wonder i gave myself a "screen-aholic" nick. I get addicted to tv, comp, hp.. laughs.. i think anything tat has a screen. *giggles*
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darling.. I LOVE YOU!
lazy monday evening
i just can't get her out of my head.
it's pretty irritating.
thinking and wondering what was it like when she and him were like in love.
questioning myself if i had done my best in loving him more than her.
asking myself each time if i have done anything to make him proud of me.
often i wonder if what i did or said made him think of me less or more.
is tis called love or possession?
i don't like knowing that there is someone else out there who is better than i am in loving him.
it's an insecure feeling that i have that just won't go away.
i am not a prefect person, i am also learning to accept the things that he do.
i just want him to understand me well enough to do certain things.
but it seems like i am giving him too much pressure.
am i thinking too much?
sometimes i feel like a fool.
sometimes i feel that i don't deserve him like someone else do.
after all.. i am not a good person..
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knowing that for the past few months, life haven't been right.
i just want things to be right again or at least less stressful for me.
mental tortures that i have been put through.
others may think that it's nothing but when you are actually in my position... i think some may have already jumped and die or be in IMH.
it is not easy living with someone who watches you like a hawk.
when you think that things are fine but they are actually just the beginning of another struggle in life.
i often think of giving up in life.
not many people understand me.
not many people know what is happening to my life.
they think that i am just being plain lazy and giving all sorts of excuses but..
I really am facing a hell load of shit.
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"family is the pillar of my support"
how many of you can live with a family who totally objects you to doing anything.. how can i describe this feeling? until you have actually live with me?
sigh.. i am just being moody and depressed again.. i will snap out of it soon. *smiles*
i am a strong girl. i don't need others to motivate me. i can do it myself and with the help of God. *nods* I can make it. just like how i went through my SAT.. i can pull though..
Life is like a continous sine curve. when it goes down, it must come up. i will just have to bear with it.. cos things will be fine soon. I just have to tell myself.. "I love myself too much to hurt myself."
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sometimes, i wished he would give me some replies.
or maybe i should understand that he's too busy to give me replies.
sometimes, i wished he would tell me nice things..
but i must be gratful that i have him and it's more than enough..
to give is to never expect to receive.
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Francis: hey.. when do you want to catch up with me arh? better let me know by Thursday.
YF: sorry.. got FYP but i haven't done much.. I am terribly sorry. to you and to Eugene. I guess my programming shucks so much that i can't help you both do anything but cause more confusion if i tried. Anyway, i am willing to do the admin and presentation work.. anything else but just not programming.. please.. *begs*
Nadia: I wanna dye hair. Laughs.. wanna help me do it? hehehe.. btw, when are we going to meet up again?
Jacob: MC no more loh.. hehehe.. take care larh. don't think so much kk..
Thomas: enjoy your buffet with your friends and your block leave before it's too late. hehehe..
lazy monday
Feeling: lazy, carefree, relaxed, happy, in love
Playing: 98.7FM, Somewhere only we know by Keane
Location: Home on my lappy
blogging on my lappy the second time. I just love this position. It is cosy. so near to my heart kind of a feeling. *takes in the moment*
I shall blog about yesterday. I woke up at 9.50am, supposed to be up by 9.30am to prepare for 10.30am mass but due to my late night the previous night (3am), i couldn't help but stole somemore time to sleep.
i got up. brushed my teeth and Keith was here. Laughs. I was supposed to meet him in church at 10.15am. hehe.. Keith knows me the best larh.. if you want to meet me at 10. tell me 9.30. Laughs. I will always be late. i have got to kick this bad habit and attitude. It's bad!
hmm.. rushed to church for mass. followed by Michie's baptism. (i don't have any photos with me cos i didn't bring my camera. I meant kor's cam. I really need to get the S100 soon.) Everything just went by so fast. before we knew it... it was time to go fetch Daddy, kor and auntie to the airport. They are having a holiday in Perth. *woOohoOo* no daddy for a week. FREEdOm! Laughs.. Oh well, he isn't that bad
larh. hehehe.. oH yar, i took a picture before they left.. i will post it once i got it from my brother. hehe.. i think i looked really silly cos i was wearing daddy's coat and sunglasses. *giggles* Daddy made me feel like a little girl once more. *ahh...* Before they went in to the boarding area, daddy gave me a kiss on my cheek too.. and told me he would get me my favourite perfume, CK one, when he comes back for my x'mas present. hehe..
After the sending off, mom, keith and i headed for causeway point to get my grandma presents. hehehe.. During the journey there, Keith and I slept. Laughs.. Poor mummy, drove along the SLE all alone. no company except the radio.
At causeway point, mom bought me these..
two 18k white gold chain to match this..
wOot! she said it's for my x'mas present, for CNY and for my Bday. *giggles* oh well, i know i will still get sth else next year.. LOL!
Oh yar, our main objective, we got my grandma some tonics. nods nods.. She is 78 this year.. but looking very young.
Hmm.. we had dinner at Sembawang Seafood restaurant, which is in some CDANS' club. Anyway, the food was not very good.. All food was cold. and my family of four tables didn't really enjoy the food. but i did a little powerpoint of the family and showed them. I didn't have much pictures with me so i only did a powerpoint slide of 18. And i brought my lappy.. so i presented it to all of them and they really enjoyed it. all of my aunts asked me to burn a copy of it to give it to them. hehehe.. *proud* Oh yar, Keith met my grandparents for the first time. I guess he seemed a little uncomfortable but i am sure my family was warm enough and didn't show signs that they disapprove unlike the previous few that i brought to dinner before.
Dear, it's a different feeling. trust me. Even my mom is full of praises for you. we will just have to hang in there till.. you know. *giggles*
hmmm... that's the end of my sunday. No pictures. sorry cos i have no camera. *i NEED my s100*
sidetrack: btw, the s100 price got revised and it dropped to $599. ah huh! a hundred dollars less. wooOohoOooo...
-monday-
NO WORK! i selpt till 11.30am. Hehehe.. Keith stayed over. both of us were like dead logs. Must be the saturday and sunday early mornings. Hehehe.. sleep till shuang. We woke up for our brunch which we ended up eating at one of Jurong West Market's coffee shops. gooses.. Keith had a plate of cutlet rice and another plate of noodles. *faints* I couldn't even finished my rice.
Oh yar, remember my Oreo chocolate stick.. seems like everyone is looking for me. hehehe.. Keith, mummy, jacob, and myself.. ahhaha.. cos we are the only ones who tasted it. Gosh! i need to go back to buy them! maybe i can give them away as x'mas present. LOL! Don't be surprised if you received one. *giggles* Dear! normal shops don't sell them larh.. hahaha.. give up and let me get them for you. hehehhee..
we got back home and he slept for a while before leaving for home at 4pm.. cos he's got driving at 5.30pm.. *looks at clock.. ah.. can call to see if he's home* hahahhaa.. Keith's got his TP on the 28th Dec. *Pray pray*
SIDETRACK: Jamie yeo and Glenn Ong are married. o_O that's fast and quiet.
hmmm... i took off today so that i can go sentosa actually but we changed plan to go swimming but then.. it rainned. all cancelled. Laughs. Dear, you also very funny leh.. you book your driving lesson at 5pm.. how do you think we can make it back by 5pm? hmm...
ah well, i got a to-do-list waiting for me later.. taken from my list which i prepared a few days ago. hehhee..
things to do for the next few days
-tidy wardore
-UOB account
-create a letter holder
-clean dusty place
-get rid of pooh bear lamp cos no space
-cut out magazine articles
well.. tmr i will be going back to school for my FYP and to check out my timetable stuff...
on wed, i will be working half day in toshiba then heading to Starbucks in the afternoon for sth.. hee.. working as well..
on thurs, work whole day.
on friday, work then meet Qi and Hans for dinner!!!
on sat and sun.. plan-less.. waiting for my boyfriend to date me.. *i am waiting*
arh.. i am going to rest for a while.. i feel so damn lazy.. anyway, i added a link called gaylord, read it if you are super free. laughs..
*feels like my entry today is a little disappointment cos i wanted to blog sth more but i am brain dead again*
some photos:
wearing my kor's okley's sunglasses.
jack jack cushion.
a little puppy sleeping on its back..
can you spot him? it's a miniture schnauzer. just like pepper.. hehhe..
eventful saturday
Feeling: drowsy, sleepy, blur, tired, excited
Playing: mp3, Last Christmas by Savage Garden
Location: Home but on my lappie
hmm.. it's the first time i am blogging on my lappy. it feels a little hot on the keyboard area tho. Anyway, i will continue to finish up what i am supposed to update and go sleep. ha!
*looks at my list that i have prepared on notepad*
I finally took my SAT this morning. I went to SMU for my SAT Reasoning Test 1. Seven Sections, 3 Mathematics, 4 Verbal.. eh.. or was it 3 verbal, 4 math.. *blur* For all i know it was 30 min for the first 5 sections and 15 min for the last 2 sections. And i personally think that it was very mentally torturing. just imagine this, you sit in a room with no music, you only face the paper and just read through or calculate what you have as fast as you can. cos it's like 31 questions in 30 min for the verbal.. and 25 qns for the maths. The only 5 min break we had, was an hour later after our paper started. (my paper started at 9am. and ended at 12.30pm) Oh well, i am proud and glad tat i went through with it. Honestly, i went for the test without knowing what to expect, cos i haven't even studied for it. *giggles* I hope i can get at least 1000 points. given my ablity in acadamic areas, i would be happy if i can get 800 and above. I am not sure when the results will be out but i will check it out again soon. I promise. hehehe..
After the test, i met JJ at Orchard Cathy for lunch and movie. Oh yar, lunch was terrible! Please don't go to the "kebah" restaurant to eat. The service and food there are LOUSY! They forgot about our orders even though we are sitted right in front of them. *disappointed* Anyway, i was already quite tired by then.. too tired to think. (i woke up at 6.30am just for my SAT.)
Anyway, JJ, aka Keith, and i caught a 3pm show called Bridget Jones Diary : The edge of Reason. Fantastic! silly-ly funny. kinda describes how i felt towards jj at times. just like i am bridget and he is mark (her bf). hmm.. you got to watch it to understand what i am saying.
And after the movie, JJ and i headed to Novena Church for novena service. We attended the 6pm service. I got a confession to make, i was yawning all the while and i fell asleep while the priest was giving his sermon. *sigh* "I am sorry Mother Mary, I didn't mean to but i was really dead beat."
We then took a bus to Bishan after the service ended. BECOS JJ was going to get his
NEW desktop. Yay! the new step is to get broadband.. and we will be more connected! *smiles* Anyway, dear.. i know i am easily pissed but i guess it's just me being plain tired and worried with some other stuff. No matter how angry i am with you or what irritating stuff you think it is not but i think it is,
I STILL LOVE YOU. *cross my heart*
Arh.. then.. i am so tired, can't really think.
I had dinner at the food court upstairs with his family. YUMMY.
then home by cab cos JJ went bowling with his family. I didn't go cos mummy didn't allow me, she said it's too late and i should be home to rest. but look what i am doing now at 3am in the morning.
I got home and asked jacob to come help me fix my laptop. my connection for my laptop larh.. He came... do a little of his magical touch and taaa daaa! it is working again. (I actually switched off my wireless LAN. DON'T laugh at me larh.. i feel extremly silly.)
THANK YOU JACOB!
I appreciate every single little bit of your help! *grateful*
-cannot take it already-
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Eugene: it didn't turn out too bad wharrttt..
Thomas: POP LOH! hahhaa.. don't know how many times have i said that already. anyway, thanks for your concern regarding my appeal. i am still waiting for my director's reply. *crosses fingers*
EVERYONE: Thanks for visiting my blog and for those who showed concern.. I really appreciate it very much. *hugs* I wish all of you good health and happiness always.
Keith: I LOVE YOU THIS MUCH. *stretch out hands wide open*
slacky friday
Feeling: slacky, tired
Playing: 98.0FM, talking DJ Mario
Location: TSP
I have Oreo Chocolate Sticks! Wahhahaha..
i am having the PMS again.. Post Meal Syndrome.
Signs:
- sleepy
- slacky
- moodless
- taking long breaks
- lack of motivation
- yawns
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EVERYONE: I have a Canon Prima Zoom 65 (analog camera), anyone knows how to get rid of it and at the same time get some cash for it? i am trying ebay but i am not sure if they would buy. I checked the price. it is selling for $88 on ebay.
Keith: Share the oreo k?
Our Destiny of Loss
Loss is Man's destiny, since anything we endeavour to love in this world can be taken from us at any moment. And nothing is more painful or crippling than the loss of a loved one.
Whether it's mortal death or the death of passion that severs a human union, the loss of a loved one cannot be prevented by any worldly craft or art.
But although we cannot prolong the time given to us to share with our loved ones, we can choose how we use it. If we can love selflessly and abundantly, the sheer immensity of love shared will far outweigh the tragedy of a shortened bond.
For very often, the greatest tragedy of a loved one's passing is not the loss itself, but the regret of not having shown and given our love more freely before it was too late.
When our partner decides to leave the relationship, or when someone we love does not reciprocate our feelings, the initial agony may seem insufferable. But we need not let the pain engulf us.
The ability to love someone is the greatest gift we possess. It is a store that will never run out, no matter how much of the inventory we choose to give away. This desire to love is a self-rejuvenating mechanism because when love is given away, more love rushes in to fill its place.
On the other hand, the desire for love gorges a heart with delicious lies that say it has the power and the right to make others love it. Over time, the glutted heart eventually collapses under its own weight, a fat and rotten thing.
It is not in our power, nor is it our right to make others love us. No one truly belongs to you. Not your family members, not your partners, and certainly not someone you just started to develop feelings for. A relationship founded on a selfish longing to possess is almost certain to fail.
Love fearlessly and unselfishly, and you need never feel the anguish and regret of loss.
friday is here.. damn happy
Feeling: happy, excited, slightly more light hearted
Playing: 98.0FM, some song.. power98 webby can't check the song title and stuff larh. sorry. (Uncle cracker's song..)
Location: TSP
wooOohoOooo... damn happy! it's friday. school is starting soon.. which means, nearer to the day that i will grad. be it whether i will have to repeat one semester or not.. i will still grad! woOOohooOoo.. ermm.. kaez.. tat's not the point.
got a few things to tell u guys. must list out first before i forget.
1. my appeal
2. my mummy
3. my daddy going to Aust
4. Thomas's POP
5. my email from keith
6. dumb laptop wireless connection
okies.. first.. my appeal. i am sure many of you are eager to know what is happening right? right?!
Thurday morning.
I was in bed still when mummy was using my laptop. (it is really weird, she's got a desktop but she wants to touch the laptop and use the lappy..)
10.20am. *ting* suddenly remembered i have to register for my forward modules, so i snatched my laptop from her.. tried to register all my 7 modules but can't larh.. the stupid time table is just plain dumb. so mummy said she would go to school with me and check it out and check the class or sth so that i can squeeze in as many mods as possible.
11.30am. i reached my EEE office. a very kind lady helped me to find out the course coordinator so that i can ask more questions and get answers. I took down a few numbers and went looking for Dr Tan. I related my situation to him, then he tried to help me to his best.. and i rememebered my mom standing outside, so i asked him if she can come in so that it will save me the explainations later which will kill me trying to make her understand. (i am bad at converying msg.)
Mom came in and told him that our family is actually facing alot of stress and it affected my studies.. (super happy. it's like mom suddenly understood what i was going through. can't explain the happiness..) Dr Tan was rather surprised when i told him of my results.. I know i am not the best student ard but i am sure i have done well enough to derserve a pass for my IAD.
He advised us to go check if my remarking appeal is successful if not, write a letter to my EEE director.
12.40pm. We were at the examination office. i asked. my appeal is unsuccessful, just as i predicted. anyway, mom and i had Macs (the only meal i had ytd). we got the jack jack cushion! woOOohooOooo.. during lunch, mummy was so anxious to get the letter written that she said," later must go buy paper and write. must give it to him today." *stunned*
so we wrote. i handed in. then the rest.. i am still waiting larh. hopefully he will call me up for an interview.
-tired liao leh-
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mummy.. she just made me realised how great she is larh. it is still not too late to treasure her. hmm.. *brain dead* ytd, her frd came over to our place.. then she kinda talked and poured her heart out to "us". LOL.. wow! she said very pleasant things about Keith.
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daddy.. i must learn to forgive him! which i always do.. haiyo.. hopefully he doesn't drive me mad if not he cannot enjoy life liao. BTW, he's going to Australia, Perth, with my brother and his mom. FREEDOM for 10days!
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THOMAS! POP loh!! YAY!!! *dances*
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Keith's email to me just makes me love him more and more each day. btw, mama said he's a good guy. WAH! her frd even asked me to get married now. *faints* "auntie, no money larh."
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my laptop connection failed me ytd, if not i would have updated last night. damn pek check. tonight must go find out wat happen. eh wait! TMR SAT LIAO! die. haven't study. *faints*
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Charlene: craving to read my blog? tat's really touching.
Nadia: finally appearing.
Eugene: Congrats. she agreed.
All: i will try harder to improve on my blog entries. i know i am long winded.. must learn the art of short and sweet.
KEITH BEH KIAN KIAT, MA JIAN JIE: you finish charging NSmen liao mah?
pms = post meal syndrome
i got bored. i took some pictures of my work space. hehe..
left side. an irritating big desktop which takes up so much space..
my lappie.. office lappie. it's a Tecra8200. hmm.. my right side of the table.. the place where i usually work..
under the table.. pile and pile.. it is still piling. laughs.. there was once it got very very cosy..
the other side.. still not so bad.. see my bag there? hehehe..
i had this after work yesterday. i bought it before mummy came to pick me up. my office building has a Food Barn.. so i grabbed it. craving for ice-cream. even though my period is here.. heck larh.. enjoy life first..
ready.. go! DEAR!! this is the flavour i like!
lunch time
Feeling: bitchy
Playing: 98.0FM, talking DJ
Location: TSP
WARNING!
The following is going to be unpleasant. Read at your own risk.
*bitchy mode on*
*scolds*
bloody piece of shit. who cares if you are an angel or devil. you are such a irritating sight.
*smacks*
wah liew.. i have never dislike a person this much. total look down on this person. this person is out of my sight for good. sickening arsehole. i wished i never knew this person. causes me more misery than joy. this person is the root of all evil! BITCH!
ha.. i am off to lunch.
*bitchy mode off*
friendship and love
Friendship and Love
Friendship and love are two things one cannot do without in life. But one can easily be mistaken for the other. Many people think they are in love with someone, when really, it is a deep friendship.
The emotions you feel in a friendly relationship or a passionate one can be similar. And the activities that friends engage in together are often those that lovers do as well. A movie, a walk, a smile, a touch, a gift, faith and loyalty.
So how can you tell?
Nathan Stutte offers some suggestions on how one can distinguish between the two.
Friendship is a quiet walk in the park with the one you trust
Love is when you feel like you are the only two around
Friendship is when they gaze into your eyes and you know they care
Love is when they gaze into your eyes and it warms your heart
Friendship is being close even when you are far apart
Love is when you can still feel their hand on your heart when they are not near
Friendship is hoping that they experience the very best
Love is when you bring them the very best
Friendship occupies your mind
Love occupies your soul
Friendship is knowing that you will always try to be there when in need
Love is when you will give up everything to be at their side
Friendship is a warm smile in the winter
Love is a warming touch that sends a pulse through your heart
Love is a beautiful smile to which nothing compares
A tender laugh, which opens your heart
A single touch that melts away your fears
A smell that reminds you of the tenderness of heaven
A voice that reminds you of the innocence of youth
Friendship can survive without love
Love cannot live without friendship
The difference between friendship and love, according to Nathan Stutte.
Is there perhaps someone you think you're in love with, when it is really an intense friendship? Carefully examine the emotions you feel. A passionate relationship is not something you just leap into. Be very certain that it is what you think it is.
