tiring weekend
Feeling: uncertain
Playing: how did i fall in love with you by BSB
Location: home
**warning. lots of pictures!!**
First event was my company's Annual Dinner and Dance at Oriental Hotel. The food was so-so but the entertainment and company of people were one of the best. We had a Toshiba "Live" meaning singing contest. My favourite people were up there... continue reading.
the usual, photo taking during cocktail reception. i have to learn to live with this group of crazy people in the office for the next 5 years. lol!
the "helpful" IT support guy.
cheeky salesman from the local AV sales team.
i don't know what i will do without her around. my best colleague, Daphne.
they got the bosses to send the door gifts to us. how nice.
the very nice bosses who are simply cute with all the things that they do. hahahaha...
my marketing manager and supporters. (ronald is the guy holding the red "card")
best boss award goes to her larh! btw, she won the Toshiba "Live". she's really good.
she got the crowd dancing and singing...
Ronald got the bosses up on stage! lol.
lagi more supporters.
crazy dance. by this time, my MD was already super high...
see all of them shake that bom bom...
and i have decided to upload one of the vid clips of them dancing. btw, i realised, it's not the chicken dance, it's the ketchup song dance or something. LOL.
*uploading.... so slow*
the end.
next.
a wonderful event. it was touching. simple yet beautiful. magic surrounds as the newly wed host this event.
that's us~! my other bunch of colleagues, with an ex classmate in there.
and i realised, i have a nicer picture of us.
bored between dishes, ran to other table to take photo.
felt bad leaving the jap bosses out, so we called them in too...
and i realised i left the bride and groom's pic out. lol.
gib me a moment.
it's really lovely. i can even feel their love around me.
only the groom and us. pardon the shaky picture, eric has a lousy hand. LOL.
The end.. my weekend, spent. *smiles*
it's about work
Feeling: happy
Playing: all my life by shayne wade on power 98 (I love this song!)
Location: tsp
weeeeEeEEEEeee..... my marketing manager said "good job!" for all the efforts that we put in for my new campaign. so happy. yey~
all the stress and mc days were put to good use. keke...
sh*tarse... slept not enough. my eyes won't open wide enough to show my pretty brown eyes. *pukes*
tonight got company Aunnal Dinner and Dance. faints. ends at one in the morning. kill me~!!!!
pui~ stupid customer from dubai. give me so many problems again. i am covering my colleague's duty while he goes for his honey moon. grrr.... really stupid and ma fan customer. argh. killing me slowly and make me puke more blood only.
sick?
Feeling: uncertain and tired
Playing: power 98
Location: tsp
I suffer from what I think is called insecurities-towards-myself, causing several side effects. Such as, low self-confidence, depression, inability to cheer myself up or motivate myself. I start to believe that I can't do anything right and people all hate me. I cannot figure which are my real thoughts and why do I do this and why do I do that. I find my thoughts frightening.
I tried so hard to stay on higher grounds but the gravity seems cunningly heavy and now I struggle to stay afloat.
I am not sick of work. I am not sick of my home. I am not sick of my boyfriend. I am sick of myself.
Sick of myself. Sick myself. I am sick.
random thoughts
Feeling: random
Playing: Power 98
Location: tsp
the sun looks bright and sunny. just perfect for a suntan session. but i am here at work. i miss the sun. i miss the beach. i miss that carefree life (wait! did i ever had that?).
one of my colleagues went to Dubai for a biz trip and brought this chocolate back. it's got red dates with chocolate and almond. the weirdest chocolate i ever encounter.
I left early for home yesterday (early = no overtime). I have been feeling lazy to work. After what happened the other day, it's dreadful coming to work. Anyway, yes, I took 166 to Clementi. And I had to alight where the old bus terminal was. Then walk across the road to the new temporary bus terminal. my first thought was, "Rain how?"
The cat just sat there. and sat there. and sat there. and sat there. and sat there. Arh.. you get the point? It just sat there. No movements. Nothing.
sigh.
my thoughts are so random.
i got a new laptop. yey! coming in the first week of december. It's pretty good to be a Toshiba staff. *grins* Can't wait to lay my hands on a 20" LCD TV. Maybe next year when they have a better model. yippie!
remember i said i was in the middle of revamping my room? I plan to get a new cabinet and new queen sized bed. Initial plan was to move some of my wardrobe and drawers but after considering the amount of work and the "feng shui" and the lack of space and the aircon's positioning... I have decided to not move anything and just put it where i can. ha. then again... I love moving stuff. gives me a new feeling and new belonging.
you can't blame me for doing so. I have lived in the same room for twenty one years.school's starting. orientation tomorrow. first class on 27th. scary. will i make it?
Sings...
i'm Only Happy When It Rains
you Wanna Hear About My New Obsession?
i'm Riding High Upon A Deep Depression
i'm Only Happy When It Rains
i love my N73. and i also love my Sony T7.
work sucks quite alot. i dread coming here. but i love staying to work late when everyone's gone home.
i am a weird person. people tell me i am from outer space. do you believe me?
pepper cut his fur. he's bald now.
i want to cry, can?
i knew it
Feeling: ***ked
Playing: power 98
Location: tsp
i knew it.
she's a bitch.
period.
worthwhile weekend
Feeling: moody and weird
Playing: Olivia's CD (A Girl Meets Bossa Nova 2)
Location: home
my weekend seemed long and happening, when i say "happening", it's not because i went clubbing. It meant i spent it wisely doing something meaningful rather than staying at home sleeping. At least i felt like it was worthwhile living.
anyway, i got a few pictures to show u peeps again (i am a "pic-to-rian" = some word i invent, it means someone who loves to take pictures and show off?).
Took it on Friday evening when I was walking back home from the carpark. It seemed so long since I got home so early to see the sun setting. seriously, i felt re-born (which lasted for only a few seconds).
Took it on Saturday at the coffeeshop opposite my block, I decided to have lunch there before I fainted from an empty stomach and the dreadful weather. I think I felt my skin burnt a little while walking to the busstop. *phew*
It felt all worthwhile because I went to Marina Square for shopping. Not for myself but for some pressie and xmas cards. I went to Borders first actually to get myself a 2007 organizer which I absolutly love (arhh.. i should have taken a picture. next time).
btw, i am in the mist of revamping my room. i feel so excited i can't sleep. haha!
And to reveal why i am moody...
I got my N73 only less than 8 days ago (at the Singtel xmas road show) and it's scratched. I dropped it just now when heading to Jurong Point. I can't help but blame myself for being clusmy and stupid. sigh. Tho it's only a material but i feel the pain. Thinking of what i have to live with (the scar), it hurts. I was thinking of spending 2 yrs with this phone, just like my previous N6260 before it was dying. *cries*
P.S.: the first 3 pictures were taken with my N73 (no photoshopping, just resized). the last, obviously, from my Sony T7. haha.. my love~
nasty and mean colleague
Feeling: nast-ed
Playing: power 98
Location: tsp
it's really tough working with colleagues who have some anger problem. Although she's from another department, I can hear her scold people loud and clear.
sigh.
yesterday, she scolded my ex-customer but i felt like she was pushing the blame to me cos i was the one who handed over the account.
this morning, she said something nasty again to another colleague.
She treats it as tho I don't exist.
I did my best within that short six months period of learning. How can she be so nasty and mean to someone who is young enough to be her daughter?
nevermind. I will treat it as a form of training. I will learn to hear no evil from her. speak no evil of her. see no evil when passing her.
I need lots of strength and sanity to stay here. Help.
send mms at only S$0.05
Feeling: burpy
Playing: power 98
Location: stuck at work
to make up for the whole day of being down... i have decided to blog~
Click for full article. It's from a
Marketing Magazine website.
Alrighty, back to work.
germany pictures
Feeling: blessed
Playing: safest place to hide by backstreet boys
Location: home
i just completed the editing of the pics. so... here. not everything up but just enough to kill the cat in you.
i reckon that there's alot more things to say about my trip but i am tired. lol. like what my aunt said, "your day trip sounds like you have been there for a week." hehe...
Travelling to Mannheim...
Travelling around the neighbourhood...
Travelling around the city...
Travelling back home...
I realised that there are lots of pictures not here but i am tired larh. lol. nights!
going home
Feeling: sleepy
Playing: nothing
Location: Frankfurt Airport
alright... i have only 12 min left to blog. i paid 3euros to get me 15 min and spent 3 min figuring out this weird key board. shall show u picture soon.
anyway, i really miss home. so alone, so lost, so scared. i couldn´t even eat anything much. sad. i haven´t slept close to the last 24hrs. my body aches. let´s hope i get good neighbours later.
Mummy, i miss you. i didn´t know being away from u for 48 hrs can be so lonely, esp when i am travelling alone this time.
Kris, i miss you too. not like i have travelled with you beore but it really helps if u were here with me.
btw, i bought lots of goodies. so hopefully there´s enough to go around.
alrighty. tata... i will be safe. don´t worry. i will go back myself from the airport and see you guys at home.
blogging from Mannhiem
Feeling: bored
Playing: frd's snoring
Location: Mannhiem, Frankfurt, Germany
this is kinda sudden. i got sent to Germany to settled some issues for my company. So on Monday afternoon, i was told that i will be travelling to Frankfurt on Tuesday night then come back on the same day as i reach Frankfurt.
And so... there i go. first time travelling alone. it was scary and lonely. i wanted to cry after 6 hours on the flight. i missed home. it was a 13hrs journey. the worst thing is a german guy sat beside me and took 1/4 of my seat, leaving me with little space to sleep. i was very tired (i still am).
I took a 2355hr (on 7/11) flight via SQ and reached Frankfurt at 0555hrs (8/11) in Frankfurt (it's 7hrs behind sgp time). and i will be taking a 2220hr (8/11) flight back to sgp later and reach sgp tomorrow at 1715hrs (9/11). it feels weird.
jet lag.
i suffer from it now.
anyway, shall post up the pictures that i took just now while seeing around the city.
I still have 9 more hrs to go. God, help me. Save me. I am drained.
try me
Feeling: lost
Playing: power 98
Location: tsp
something caught me this morning. i was taken aback. i feel lost again.
why is it so easy to lose something? things like confidence, trust, happiness.
It took me years to build up those and prepare me for my future back then but now i feel like it's all gone, all the efforts wasted.
never in my life have someone said i was childish (of cos, jokingly yes and maybe those who don't know me thinks i am). all of a sudden it seems as tho it's a crime to have PMDD. i know i am the worst among most of my friends and i get extremes but i really can't control it. *sobs*
some people just won't understand, especially women, they think that PMDD is just PMS but they won't know until they experience what PMDD women go through.
if you think it's easy to knock yourself out of being negative, try being me. really, pray so hard and wish with all your might to be me for one month.
i am not proud and being "hao lian" to say that i been through alot but what i went through left me scars which gives me nightmares and fears and insecurities. it's not for you to judge my character.
it's hard being a human being already, why make it harder for me to be me?
i hate myself during this time of the month.
so sleepy
Feeling: sleepy
Playing: power 98
Location: tsp
so sleepy. i wanna sleep. so sleepy.
felt so weak last night, as tho my body's energy had all been drained and the overnight charging wasn't enough.
everyday i tell myself, NO OT. but i end up working later. bah!
aye... but my work is never ending. just when i finished this task, another comes. no space to breathe. i stayed last night hoping to close my department's sales (cos my mentor was on half day leave
again) but the accounts dept found errors in our data. so today my mentor has to change (cos it's her data) the mistakes before we can close.
anyway, if we do make it, we will be the first among the 3 audiovisual dept to close. yippie! usually i will be the one delaying cos i have so many last minute sales to do but this month... hiak hiak... i am free-er. i am glad i gave my three customers away. yey!
alrighty. better get my butt cracking. cheerios~
